Day 36: Waiting Room/Lobby 1

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Oh yeah. This was bad. Grabbing a chair and ignoring the woman who had brought him in, Takaya crossed his arms and glared at the wall. He wasn't going to participate in this bullshit. Being told he had 'company' and that he should he happy about it had ruined what was otherwise an okay day

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Adam walked into the visitor's room and felt a little bit of nervousness creep into his chest. It was so strange to be back in this place, but he had gotten better and it would be wrong of him to abandon Alan to his maddness, not when he had been the one to cause it.

He reached up on hand and removed the big sunglasses he had been wearing over his eyes. He folded them and tucked them into the pocket of his suit, scanning the room for sign of Alan.

He say the boy sitting, waiting for him, looking as irritated as ever. He suppressed a smile at the sight of him, letting instead his guilt take over.

He had come to apologize. That was worth something wasn't it?

He walked cautiously to the table, unsure how Alan would respond to him. "Good after noon Yamamoto-kun," he stuck with the last name for now. "As cheerful as ever, I see."

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Oh fuck no. Takaya just stared at the man that had approched him. Hate that he wasn't totally certain came from outside seeped into his thoughts.

"Fuck. You," he snarled. "What the hell?!" Arms uncrossed and he stood up, pointing a finger at Naoe.

"You son of a bitch! How dare you come-" Something finally registered. "What did you call me?"

Shit. Shit shit shit shit.

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That was about the welcome he had been expecting, so he wasn't surprised, he was, however, very hurt. There was a time that Alan had looked up to him. He had been the one to destroy that. He had no one to blame for Alan's hatred but himself.

"Alan," he said, trying to stay calm. "Please don't get worked up. I remember what these people do to you when you start throwing a tantrum." He glanced towards the nurses, wondering if one of them had the needle ready. Alan had a bit of a pattern after all.

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Calm?!? Takaya's breathing sped up just a bit and his grit his teeth.

"You remember? You... have no idea what these people do to me. And stop calling me that you asshole." He was fighting to stay in control. He had to stay in control.

"You ..." A tremor started up his arms. "You fucking .... I thought you were DEAD. And you... you went over to them."

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"I got better," Adam said, trying to stay level headed with Alan. "I thought they would tell you that." A thought crossed his mind that Alan actually cared if he lived or died, but he tried to squash all the places that could go. There could be no more of that. He had only come here to apologize. "I'm sorry if that caused you pain."

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"You ... got better." Takaya bowed his head, shaking with pent up frustration, anger, and that low, cold hate that wasn't quite his. "Nobody ... said anything. Nobody gave a shit. Everyone ... fucking left, and there you stand."

The gaze that looked up at Naoe wasn't Takaya any longer. "Abandoning me again without a word." He sat down heavily in the chair again, crossing his arms and considering the man that wore Naoe's face. "Fine. Whatever."

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"Abandoning you?" Adam asked, visibly hurt and desperate to prove that that wasn't what he had meant. "No, Alan, it wasn't like that. I needed to get better so I could see all of the ways that I was hurting you." He hadn't sat, and wouldn't sit until Alan suggested that he did.

"I've realized that what I put you through, what I did to you, is unforgivable and I wanted..." he trailed off. It seemed silly to say 'I'm sorry' right after admitting that his actions were 'unforgivable'. "I care about you," he said after a slight pause. "I want you to get better too."

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"then, by all means," Kagetora sneered. "Tell me exactly how I'm supposed to get better?" He waved a hand at the staff in the room. "You think these people here are going to help me?"

He laughed. It was soft, and cold, but it was a laugh. "You know, according to the staff here, I'm having a 'good' day. What do you think they mean by that?"

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Adam bowed his head. He was torn between his desire to be as submissive as possible and his desire to help the boy he had ruined. "Don't do this," he said, the words clearly difficult for him to say. "Don't become what you aren't right now. I came here hoping to help Alan, not to deal with you."

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"Do what? I don't understand anything that's going on here, and these people certainly aren't offering up any explainations."

Takaya tried again. "Shit, I don't even... I mean, fuck. You can't be sitting here, tell me all this bullshit and expect me to believe it."

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"Who do you think I am?" Adam asked, looking at Alan very seriously. "Naoe Nobutsuna, an ancient soul who took over the body of a monk? A monk who smokes and womanizes and does... horrible things to teenaged boys?" Adam frowned. "A soul bound to live out generation to generation, stopping evil demons from taking over? You realize how crazy all of that sounds? Isn't it just more likely that we made it all up? That I made it all up and dragged you down with me?"

Permission be damned, Adam sat across from Alan, trying to be on his level, trying to make him make sense of it all. "Who was it that told you all those things?" he asked. "Who was it that tried to convince you that you weren't a real person? That's ridiculous. Of course you are. You're real. I was completely insane, and you were victimized because of it."

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"Then tell me who you are!" Takaya slammed his fist down hard on his thigh, not caring that it would leave a nasty bruise later.

"You've told me so much shit since I fucking met you, so tell me why the hell I should believe you now?!?"

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Adam winced at Alan hurting himself. Maybe he shouldn't have come here. It was too late now, so he might as well try to get through to the boy.

"You know who I am," he said. "Somewhere, buried under everything else that I've put there you have to know the truth, Alan. You have to."

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Takaya buried his head in his hands, tired of this. He willingly gave up to Kagetora.

Who was pissed.

Keeping his face in his hands, shoulders shaking slightly, he dug back into their memories, sifting through everything for any useful information.

"Fuck." He was familiar enough with Takaya's mannerisms that he could mimic them very well. Takaya couldn't do the same. "Fuck, fuck,fuck." He took a slow shuddering breath.

".....Adam." That was what the staff had called him before, right? He'd been Alan and Naoe had been Adam.

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"Yes," Adam said, his voice low. It was clear he was upsetting Alan, and of course he would be, so he didn't want to force anything more than he had to on the kid. "Yes, that's me."

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Putting just enough of Takaya's hurt tone in his voice, he lifted his head from his hands, though he didn't look at 'Naoe'.

"I don't .... I don't even know what the hell happened. Shit. I don't know why I'm fucking here at all."

Inside he seethed. How dare Landel do this?! If the truly was Naoe sitting across from him, than the good doctor had taken what was rightfully his. And how could Naoe be so weak?!?