an actual entry
thought i'd better write a real post before i do my next stupid alphabet thing, otherwise i'll never get round to it.
basically, life in anna's world is confusing and filled with wistful dreams that may never find their way into reality. i've spent so much time recently sitting on my bed not studying but thinking about how much more satisfied i'd be if i was actually doing drama, acting... and knowing that my chances of getting a career in acting, or even getting into waapa are so low that i should really give up before i destroy my lovely little fantasy.
still, whatever happens, i'm going to defer for a year next year and find out what i can do with that year, see if i can get into waapa for 2008... that would be so good... i need to get in touch with ms artemis to see if she has any advice for me/ knows anything i could audition for in the meantime. i'm sick of uni. so sick of it. i really really want to be on stage.
to make matters worse, being the insecure person that i am, i'm constantly worrying that i won't get into anything, not because i'm not a good actor, but because i'm ugly. that thought haunts me day and night. and i don't mean that in an "i'm exaggerating, poetic license" kind of way, i really mean it.
but don't worry, i'm not going to launch into an "omg-i-am-so-fat-and-gross-i-hate-myself" thing. i just feel a little insecure and thought that an lj is the best place to write this. seeing as it is a WEB-LOG. good god, and i'm actually using it to record stuff? wow...
anyway, i'm off now. i do have to at least pass my exams this year so i can leave without getting a fail for the course. that would suck. hope everyone is super. heh, super. i just had to say that.
basically, life in anna's world is confusing and filled with wistful dreams that may never find their way into reality. i've spent so much time recently sitting on my bed not studying but thinking about how much more satisfied i'd be if i was actually doing drama, acting... and knowing that my chances of getting a career in acting, or even getting into waapa are so low that i should really give up before i destroy my lovely little fantasy.
still, whatever happens, i'm going to defer for a year next year and find out what i can do with that year, see if i can get into waapa for 2008... that would be so good... i need to get in touch with ms artemis to see if she has any advice for me/ knows anything i could audition for in the meantime. i'm sick of uni. so sick of it. i really really want to be on stage.
to make matters worse, being the insecure person that i am, i'm constantly worrying that i won't get into anything, not because i'm not a good actor, but because i'm ugly. that thought haunts me day and night. and i don't mean that in an "i'm exaggerating, poetic license" kind of way, i really mean it.
but don't worry, i'm not going to launch into an "omg-i-am-so-fat-and-gross-i-hate-myself" thing. i just feel a little insecure and thought that an lj is the best place to write this. seeing as it is a WEB-LOG. good god, and i'm actually using it to record stuff? wow...
anyway, i'm off now. i do have to at least pass my exams this year so i can leave without getting a fail for the course. that would suck. hope everyone is super. heh, super. i just had to say that.