for anyone who cares to read this
hey guys, just thought i might let you know what's going on so that my lack of initiative in doing anything doesn't get interpreted as being a crap friend (that's another issue entirely! :P)
basically things have been pretty shitty lately in terms of my body-image and all that. i'm trying to manage all this without a psychiatrist, but truth be told i'm finding it incredibly hard. as before, it's a constant struggle for me to eat normally (on either end of the scale) so i've been going from fasting to binge-eating so fast it isn't funny. basically i'm not losing or gaining any weight but i'm just feeling really shit about it all cause it's so unhealthy.
on top of that i'm feeling down cause of some other stuff that i can't really put in here for the sake of other people involved, but basically it's leading to a great deal of uncertainty and anxiety.
so i've been having trouble motivating myself to get anything done or to meet up with people and socialise. i don't even want to get up in the mornings, things are just looking so unappealing! for the first time in ages i've been so depressed that i've been thinking about suicide and stuff again (not seriously, but it's in the back of my mind. like an occasional thought that just pops up from time to time) and i don't like it. i'm worried that things will get worse and i thought i'd got over the worst of this...
i really don't know. i'm confused and anxious and depressed and all i can really think about is how i'm eating so much more than i want to be.
basically things have been pretty shitty lately in terms of my body-image and all that. i'm trying to manage all this without a psychiatrist, but truth be told i'm finding it incredibly hard. as before, it's a constant struggle for me to eat normally (on either end of the scale) so i've been going from fasting to binge-eating so fast it isn't funny. basically i'm not losing or gaining any weight but i'm just feeling really shit about it all cause it's so unhealthy.
on top of that i'm feeling down cause of some other stuff that i can't really put in here for the sake of other people involved, but basically it's leading to a great deal of uncertainty and anxiety.
so i've been having trouble motivating myself to get anything done or to meet up with people and socialise. i don't even want to get up in the mornings, things are just looking so unappealing! for the first time in ages i've been so depressed that i've been thinking about suicide and stuff again (not seriously, but it's in the back of my mind. like an occasional thought that just pops up from time to time) and i don't like it. i'm worried that things will get worse and i thought i'd got over the worst of this...
i really don't know. i'm confused and anxious and depressed and all i can really think about is how i'm eating so much more than i want to be.