My Heart Does This To Me Every Time
I have started to fall into the trap my heart lays for me every time. I wish my heart wouldn't start to fall for people whom I really shouldn't have those sorts of feelings for. But I understand why this is happening she is freaking perfect in almost every way. I know its stupid to feel like this but its nice to have feelings like this again I just wish they would be for someone I could do something with. Worst of all I have to worry about these stupid feelings leaking out and messing up our friendship that hasn't been around for a long time. Even if I can't ever be with her I still want to be her friend she is so wonderful and fun to talk to that I would have a hard time filling the whole that would be made if she were to leave. I just have to suck it up and push the feelings down and maybe just maybe I can make it without doing something stupid for long enough that they just go away. Lets hope that is the case.