person i care and love
you know that there is this guy that i love and
care for alot and apart of me wnat to be with
him and other times i don't want to be with him..
and his name is matt.. what matt did to me was
he showed me how to love again and showed me
thing the i never thought i would see like when
he took me to the falls on new york side.. to
time to get to know me before we jump in the
sack.. you know as i sit here wondering what
when wrong it turns out that it was me, for the
fact the i pushed the guy i love to lie and
cheat on me and in the end i hurt myself.. so
now we have time to think thing over and see what
happens. i am leaving on wedsday not knowing
where i am going and the guy i love might go to
florada for good and i might not get to be
with him anymore.. for the last two days i have
asked myself over and over again should i
really leave him or should stay and talk this
over with him.. i know that matt loves me and
if i leave what would happen to us.. for the
part two months all i wanted was to make matt
happy he was my mine person to make sure that he
had everything he wanted but i still don't know
what to do.. i ask myself all the time what
should i do.. i get scared that he might hurt
himself... but i do know that a big apart has
fell in love with matt and i just don't know what
to do with him anymore...i guess time will
tell.. i even went as far as changing all my
profile saying that i am single again but my
heart will never be single again becuz matt has
it.. last night i wanted to hold matt but i was
scared to and it seam like matt wanted to told
me to but i don't know it must have been me
being hopefull and it never happened . i also ask
myself why do guys cheat on me al the time and
i still set there and take and try to make things
work and all it does is fall apart.. matt never
wanted to date damien so last night damien was
put to rest.. becuz i am tired of all the drama
and all it does is fuck up a realtionship like it
did mine with matt.. i just hope before i do
leave that we can fine some way to work this
out but i know that you probly don't want to
anymore becuz none of your friends like me and
you once told me that your friends come first..
i even thought about having a open realtionship
with matt but matt told me that he does not
wont one... i know that you where spending money
to pissy me off so that you would not have to
break it off with me but matt ask yourself this. is
there really any other guy out that like me that
will put up with all the shit that you put
anthony throw? things like crabs, lieing, and
cheated on me and i am still there wanting to
work things out with you.. the anwser is No! I have
stuck with you thought all the shit.. matt i just
hope you reallize that i really do love but it
is you that has to make your mind up on what you
want from me.. right now yes it is the end for
me and you becuz i am sooooo confused on whatto do
but i don't want to get hurt anymore, i just
want to be happy and have you in my life but
like i said yesturday if you love something let
it go and if it returns than it was meant to
be .. but i think that is even wrong becuz i
know that you probly don't want me anymore and you
are just letting me go and walk out of your
life for good..
just remember that i love you and do care for
you and now that we are here what should we do
now? please help me make up our minds....
love anthony
care for alot and apart of me wnat to be with
him and other times i don't want to be with him..
and his name is matt.. what matt did to me was
he showed me how to love again and showed me
thing the i never thought i would see like when
he took me to the falls on new york side.. to
time to get to know me before we jump in the
sack.. you know as i sit here wondering what
when wrong it turns out that it was me, for the
fact the i pushed the guy i love to lie and
cheat on me and in the end i hurt myself.. so
now we have time to think thing over and see what
happens. i am leaving on wedsday not knowing
where i am going and the guy i love might go to
florada for good and i might not get to be
with him anymore.. for the last two days i have
asked myself over and over again should i
really leave him or should stay and talk this
over with him.. i know that matt loves me and
if i leave what would happen to us.. for the
part two months all i wanted was to make matt
happy he was my mine person to make sure that he
had everything he wanted but i still don't know
what to do.. i ask myself all the time what
should i do.. i get scared that he might hurt
himself... but i do know that a big apart has
fell in love with matt and i just don't know what
to do with him anymore...i guess time will
tell.. i even went as far as changing all my
profile saying that i am single again but my
heart will never be single again becuz matt has
it.. last night i wanted to hold matt but i was
scared to and it seam like matt wanted to told
me to but i don't know it must have been me
being hopefull and it never happened . i also ask
myself why do guys cheat on me al the time and
i still set there and take and try to make things
work and all it does is fall apart.. matt never
wanted to date damien so last night damien was
put to rest.. becuz i am tired of all the drama
and all it does is fuck up a realtionship like it
did mine with matt.. i just hope before i do
leave that we can fine some way to work this
out but i know that you probly don't want to
anymore becuz none of your friends like me and
you once told me that your friends come first..
i even thought about having a open realtionship
with matt but matt told me that he does not
wont one... i know that you where spending money
to pissy me off so that you would not have to
break it off with me but matt ask yourself this. is
there really any other guy out that like me that
will put up with all the shit that you put
anthony throw? things like crabs, lieing, and
cheated on me and i am still there wanting to
work things out with you.. the anwser is No! I have
stuck with you thought all the shit.. matt i just
hope you reallize that i really do love but it
is you that has to make your mind up on what you
want from me.. right now yes it is the end for
me and you becuz i am sooooo confused on whatto do
but i don't want to get hurt anymore, i just
want to be happy and have you in my life but
like i said yesturday if you love something let
it go and if it returns than it was meant to
be .. but i think that is even wrong becuz i
know that you probly don't want me anymore and you
are just letting me go and walk out of your
life for good..
just remember that i love you and do care for
you and now that we are here what should we do
now? please help me make up our minds....
love anthony