Hell's Frozen Over
I AM SO HAPPY!!!! ^_^
I cannot begin to describe how happy I am right now in my life , and I must say that it feel good to finally get to say that after so long. When I was 12 years old having another major surgery done to repair damage from a car wreck I was in at 7 my Father looked down at me as they wheeled me into the OR .... his last words to me were "Clay , Happiness Will Be Yours One Day After All The Pain You've Been Through .... And That Happiness Will Be Worth Going Through All This Pain To Grasp" ...... Well Dad you little boy has grown up and is now one happy man.
I hope I will not upset or embaras her but the source of all my happiness? .... why no other than that beutiful treasure of my life Amber ..... I love her so deeply , she is my start and my end .... my Alpha and Omega ..... she trully completes me because I have never felt as whole as I do right now ... she's made me not only enjoy life but look foward to sharing a long and passionate life with her. I can't really put into words how much I cherish her , how much I love her ..... she has made me feel things that I did not even belive existed anymore. AMBER THANK YOU , .....FOR LOVING ME AND LETTING ME LOVE YOU!!!
I'm finally taking control of my life and no longer basing all of my decesions on the fear or what others might say or do ..... This is my life and I must live it as I see fit. What I mean is simple .... I'm taking the plunge and this August I'm heading to Washington state to be with my baby ..... the big question right now is will I return here? ...... it's always possible .... I love my family but to be totally truthfull I do not plan on leaving any time soon once I get there. If things work out the way my fantasies have told me it will play out like this , .... I chill there for awhile as a guest and just revel in being with her finally ..... then I take what ever money I have left , get myself a job there and start to rent a cheap Apartment ..... and once I do that if she wanted to move in she would definitly have an open invitation ..... but I'm not pushing things to fast out of her wishes ..... we are both sore and vunerable when it comes to love so were gonna take a steady but GOD DAMNED PERFECT life.
I can't help but be so damn enthralled here .....
I shall keep in touch all the time via here , but expect the entries to be sappy and alot less melodramatic than before .... now I shall still have the occasional rant about Light and Dark cuz thats just the way I am , .... but Amber has taught me I no longer need to fear or question love and much much more .....
She even makes me proud and feel so damn special ..... she is just so damn perfect ..... I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!
*RUNS AROUND IN CIRCLES LAUGHING UNCONTROLABLY YELLING*
BIRD....>LOOK AT THE BIRD!!!
AND THIS PIC IS A INSIDE PERSONAL THING , I KNOW SHE WILL CATCH IT
