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i did it again...
emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo and.........emo --that's what this update is about...me being emo
i sat and slammed my head on the table on our bus for a good 20 minutes before feeling light headed and before dan put a pillow on the table because he was trying to sleep. wtf is my problem? i need to know why the hell i'm such an asshole. i'm sitting here thinking about why i let something completely awesome in my life just pass me by. she's so fucking good to me, you have no idea.
i'm the type of guy to get jealous real easy. i admit --fuck off. i thought she might've had known that...i dunno. i just don't know anymore. i remember sitting staring at her wishing i could just hold her and be romantic with her with added stupidity, but i'm not capable of that or some shit. i admired her beauty - and i know she's a beautiful person. she's so caring, funny, sweet....someone kick me. in the bus i thought about her a lot even though she was on the road too. it felt like she was so distant - i haven't felt so uncomfortable in such a fucking long time.
i thought that you could only fall in love once or some shit like that, and i never really believed i could do it again (fall in love). i think for the most part i get mad at stupid things to back away from her because i'm scared to get hurt again. i hate that feeling so fucking much i wanna sometimes drive myself off a cliff.
with that thought -- please excuse me as i go hang myself.
emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo and.........emo --that's what this update is about...me being emo
i sat and slammed my head on the table on our bus for a good 20 minutes before feeling light headed and before dan put a pillow on the table because he was trying to sleep. wtf is my problem? i need to know why the hell i'm such an asshole. i'm sitting here thinking about why i let something completely awesome in my life just pass me by. she's so fucking good to me, you have no idea.
i'm the type of guy to get jealous real easy. i admit --fuck off. i thought she might've had known that...i dunno. i just don't know anymore. i remember sitting staring at her wishing i could just hold her and be romantic with her with added stupidity, but i'm not capable of that or some shit. i admired her beauty - and i know she's a beautiful person. she's so caring, funny, sweet....someone kick me. in the bus i thought about her a lot even though she was on the road too. it felt like she was so distant - i haven't felt so uncomfortable in such a fucking long time.
i thought that you could only fall in love once or some shit like that, and i never really believed i could do it again (fall in love). i think for the most part i get mad at stupid things to back away from her because i'm scared to get hurt again. i hate that feeling so fucking much i wanna sometimes drive myself off a cliff.
with that thought -- please excuse me as i go hang myself.