this is very much a diary entry with somewhat rhetorical questions(you dont have to read it)
Through out my career at georgia state ive made all a's and b's. this semester i set out to make all a's. i have a small goal makng group with members that help me achieve these goals whether its encouragement or planning. among making straight a's i plan to take more photos with film (or at least try to make digital look like film) bc i miss that fuzzy grainy low saturation. i also am working on my money management skills including saving 50-100 dollars whenever possible (monthly/bi-weekly). and last but not least, each member of my group has a fitnness/hotness goal. we all want to look like kate moss. or at least feel like kate moss in our bikinis.
so far ive done pretty good. ive gone to the gym 3 times so far this week, ive been reading all my books for class, ive been planning some photo ideas in my head. i h ave a weekly planner to keep track of my work schedules and to do's. but something is stopping me from this straight A's thing. i got a B on my first paper in english and last night after several hours of grueling drawing and sleeplessness i recieved a B on my midterm portfolio. thoroughly discouraged i walked a few blocks in a thunderstorm to my car on the top floor of the parking deck. i sat in my car sulking and looking at the city scape that surrounded me and then listened to chopin on my way home. and when i got home i continued to sulk in my wet clothes. and isnt this rediculous! eventually i decided to take some photos and i guess thats what this entry is really about.
i do have to step it up for my drawing class and i already turned in a paper that im really happy with for english, but i feel torn between my own creativity and what my professors want. do i take a B and produce something i enjoy doing or do i strive for an A and constrict myself to their guidelines?
