"do not be so long to speak, i long to die"-r&j
truth:
i am a very sad, very lonely, very..
i-want-to-give-up-on-my-life-because-it's-the-only-thing-i-believe-will-finally-end-my-pain, kind of girl.
& none of the people that ever claimed to have loved me throughout my life cares to stop and ask me if i'm okay. because saving lives just isn't what they're into.
& it scares me. because i'm afraid of myself.
for the first time ever, i actually plan on pulling the trigger.
[this is a blatant cry for help.]
why am i not worth it?
i am a very sad, very lonely, very..
i-want-to-give-up-on-my-life-because-it's-the-only-thing-i-believe-will-finally-end-my-pain, kind of girl.
& none of the people that ever claimed to have loved me throughout my life cares to stop and ask me if i'm okay. because saving lives just isn't what they're into.
& it scares me. because i'm afraid of myself.
for the first time ever, i actually plan on pulling the trigger.
[this is a blatant cry for help.]
why am i not worth it?