been a long time..
i've had the most wonderfulest summer so far..lets see..it started a long time before i even left st. croix..but the date was set for july 7th..well..if you know me i am all about surpises..even thought they NEVER happen to me i LOVE good suprises and i love suprising people..so i secretly set up with my parents and jacobs parents to go down to Louisiana on the 3rd..he had no idea..so chloe and i set off about 7:30am on july 3rd and i had to ignore jacobs phone calls so he wouldnt know that i wasnt at church or he couldnt tell that i was in the car..so yea..neways..about 4:15pm i showed up at jacobs front door and suprised him..YEAH!!! so chloe and stayed in Louisina from the 3rd to the 12th..it was wonderful..being with jacob 24/7 in his arms feeling his touch..i was so safe so happy SO COMPLETE!! so..while we were there we rented a lot of movies seeing that he didnt have cable..we also went to the aquarium of the americas in new orleans..chloe absolutely loved that..she couldve stayed at first exhibit all day if we let her but she was just as excited to move to each new exhibit..so that was a lot of fun..to see her face light up that much was wonderful..other then that we went to walmart a few times and we went to the mall and we also went out to dinner with some of his friends..that was fun..met ryan and emily and ryan brought some chicks with him..then after dinner jacob chloe emily and i went to what is similiar to a camelot over in louisiana and met dempsey who was busy playing dance dance..fun stuff..chloe had fun there too..playing through the ball even though she was supposed to be rolling it..neways..his sister missy set up a pool for the weekend we were there so we swam a little bit and chilled..it was so much fun though..seeing where he grew up and listening to his stories..but most of all being in his arms again and being able to kiss him whenever i wanted to..then from louisiana we drove up to mississippi to visit with his grandparents..those two are the most loving kindest caring people ive met in a long time..i love them so much already and cant wait to be there grandadughter in law..and they absolutely loved chloe which made me so incredibly happy..so we got there in the late afternoon and ate dinner and then his grandpa took chloe and i on the four wheeler down to his ponds to feed his catfish..that was something ive never seen..it was pretty cool..so that was a lot of fun..i enjoyed that time a lot..then we came back up to Tennessee..jacob was here for a week..he worked with me a few times and we went to check out some colleges for him here for next year and we also took the baby to the zoo here..she liked that a lot too..it was rainy when we got there so we werent shur about whether or not we really wanted to go in but chloe and jacob both really enjoyed themselves so it was worth the money..hehe..then a few days before jacob had to leave i got a call from jeff sparrow an old buddy from coastal christian and he was informing me that he was in tennessee visiting a friend..so he wanted to come by and catch up..so he drove to my house..we then went up to nashville and walked around for a little while and got some ice cream and then we tried to go to the mall but it was closed so then he brought us back to the house we said are good byes and he was off..it was fun..so then the dreaded wed came where i had to say bye to my baby..we did vbs in the morning at my church together mon-wed..so after vbs on wed we took alex and chloe back to the house and jacob and i went to the airport..my dad listed me for a flight so that i could go through security with him and sit with him till he HAD to leave..since he was on standby we were waiting and hoping that he didnt get called for that flight..and we could sit there a little bit longer together..but unfortunately his name was the last one called and he had to go..oh man..the worst thing in the world..to have your whole world ripped from your arms for another few months is not cool at all..i was finally complete again and i had to return to that empty feeling for a little while longer..it was not cool..theres really no words to express the feeling..so now we are hoping that i can go out to st croix sometime in aug..that would be ideal..if not then the next time i can see him is in oct when we are both out in cali for my ashlis wedding..so other then that..im no longer going to be a nurse..its not what i want to do nemore..like i know iwould love it and enjoy it the rest of my life but i am not a science person..i can memorize and then forget what i need to in order to pass tests..but i need to be able to memorize..digest..and regurgitate when needed when it comes to nursing..and i cant do that..i also dont want to be in school for another three years since i didnt pass some of my classes i'd have to start over pretty much..and i dont want to be in a class studying..writing papers..and taking tests..thats not what i want to do..so why waste the money..so i am now waiting to start cosmetology school..i'll be done newhere from 9-12 months from when i start..it wont be as hard of in class schooing as nursing and i'll be out of school a lot sooner which means i can get married!!!!! if i can get married in a year i would be one incredibly happy person and i can cut hair while jacob goes to school and when he gets done with school and i have done a few years in a salon i will have some faithful clients and i can start having more kids and cutting hair out the house while i stay home with our kids..so then we can still have two incomes if need be and i can stay home with the kids which is what ive wanted to do neways..so yea..thats the plan stan..hopefully it will go smoothly and how we want it..i cant wait to be with him forever..i will be the most luckiest woman alive to be with jacob and be able to carry his kids and be there mother for the rest of my life..i love that man..can you tell?? hehe..neways..just wanted to drop a little update..im gonna go now..my man is waiting for me to call him..talk to you guys later..love you all and miss you tons..see you in oct..loves
ashley
ashley