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[damagedwing]

work is going good. i saw a few of my friends yesterday. i was supposed to go see shane today with jenny but jenny didnt wanna wake up and then i couldnt find shane. so we scrapped the beach a little. i came home, and of course cried. but it didnt last long, those new pills really work, like instantly. i smoked alot of weed last night. i mean ALOT! i didnt knwo who i was, it was worse then the night jon and jenny had to carry me off the dock practicly. but thats ok cuz then i slept on my floor where it was cool. OMG!!!!! i didnt have to sleep with a bear. i think i am getting somewhere. anyways, i work today at 4, you should come see me...ask a person in the front and i will come see you. val and jenny both work with me too. this sunday is the concert. i told billy he could have both tickets if he was going to drive, cuz if not then i am going alone. no worries, concerts alone arnt all that bad. i am still trying to find my favorite person.....most of you know what i am talking about. well i am goign to go take a nap....

*********(I'm sober now for 3 whole months, it's one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing that I won't touch again
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinoins on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I'll drive so fucking far away that I'll never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind )***************

jackie