oh great.
oh gosh. life is going slowly but surely down the porcelin peehole.
im so depressed. i hate this feeling.
i went home half day from school. i felt like death. and still do. ugh.
so everything sucks. and i dont know what to do.
i really do like him. but wow. the more i tihnk about it. its not gunna work. and i dont think he feels the same. he may think he does, but i doubt it. and even if we were to go out, what then? like i dunno how it would be. ugh. i dont know what to do.
and i feel like im missing out. like im missing SOMETHING. im not sure what it is yet. but i want to find it.
and i feel like a bitch. people have pissed me off to the point of no return. fuck you. if your gunna be like that, im not gunna be your friend. i dont need you in my life. i dont want to go backwards, and ive tried friends like you before.
and this play. do not get me started. it blows. we're not gunna be able to pull it off. 4 hours on a 3 minute scene? FUCK THAT. lets get a real rehearsal down first ok?! ugh.
but talking to jon has made me feel better. hes a good kid to talk to. makes me feel a lot better. which i need now.
ive been crying a lot lately. for not a lot of reason. and i dont like it.
well im done with this. ugh.
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