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so i've been kinda up and down lately. not so happy, but not too sad...
ive been thinking about my life a lot. like what would happen if it just ended. like where would i go? like if there is heaven and hell im screwed. and if not.. i dunno.. its weird...
i also lost a very close friend. no they didnt die. but they are definitly gone. they're not even real. i dont know why i pretend i knew him. its not like i mattered.
its not like i have feelings.
and they definitly aren't hurting....
i just dont know anymore.
i can be in a fine mood. then something sparks it and BAM i just dont know how to deal.
ive been thinking about my life a lot. like what would happen if it just ended. like where would i go? like if there is heaven and hell im screwed. and if not.. i dunno.. its weird...
i also lost a very close friend. no they didnt die. but they are definitly gone. they're not even real. i dont know why i pretend i knew him. its not like i mattered.
its not like i have feelings.
and they definitly aren't hurting....
i just dont know anymore.
i can be in a fine mood. then something sparks it and BAM i just dont know how to deal.