Year 3...
I don't have much to say this year... Other than right now it feels more real than ever... After I flipped through pages of The Lauren McCain story I keep running across Phillips comments and stories. I just can't believe that this much time has gone by. It still hits home.. and I find myself depressed I don't own anything maroon or orange. I don't even have a VT shirt or hat. I really need to invest in one of those things....
Tomorrow I will wear the same two ribbons I wore three years ago for three weeks straight. The same ribbons I wore on April 20th for Columbine that year. The ones I wore the past two April 16ths. And now I listen to "Forever Changed"
I went to church Easter Sunday. Her picture was in the bathroom... (bunch of girls in a circle praying)
I don't know what to do tomorrow. I'm working overtime to take off Monday... I also have three tests in the afternoon... Ryan's gone for the weekend... My options are alone... driving to Williamsburg for a short lived hug... or Bar hopping for a friends birthday... None seem very comforting on a day that I curl into for the last three years.
Not that anyone would put themselves through these again... cause even I didn't want to... Just listening to my voice makes me crack sometimes....
Reliving + the next six days: http://dalralmi.livejournal.com/2007/04/16/
year one: http://dalralmi.livejournal.com/2008/04/15/
Tomorrow I will wear the same two ribbons I wore three years ago for three weeks straight. The same ribbons I wore on April 20th for Columbine that year. The ones I wore the past two April 16ths. And now I listen to "Forever Changed"
I went to church Easter Sunday. Her picture was in the bathroom... (bunch of girls in a circle praying)
I don't know what to do tomorrow. I'm working overtime to take off Monday... I also have three tests in the afternoon... Ryan's gone for the weekend... My options are alone... driving to Williamsburg for a short lived hug... or Bar hopping for a friends birthday... None seem very comforting on a day that I curl into for the last three years.
Not that anyone would put themselves through these again... cause even I didn't want to... Just listening to my voice makes me crack sometimes....
Reliving + the next six days: http://dalralmi.livejournal.com/2007/04/16/
year one: http://dalralmi.livejournal.com/2008/04/15/