Jeez...It's been a while...
I don't know what to do with my summer. Part of me wants to stay here, work, take a class...but I really miss my family and I'm not sure it's fair to them for me to stay in Gainesville. My Dad is sick, and no one's figured out what's wrong; my grandfather's been in Florida for two weeks and is already more than my family can handle. He complains about the way my Mom runs our household, he complains about what everyone wears, he lies to my Mom about whether or not he's had his breathing treatments, and shows blatant disregard for his special diabetic nutritional needs. His most recent complaint to my mother is that her children talk back to much(not necessarily disrespectfully, just playfully) and that it's her own fault because she talks to her children to much. What is he thinking?! It's hard for me to think of him as my grandfather. I haven't seen him in over six years, so he's more of an abstract concept than a person; he's mostly just a constant source of hurt. I know my mom's having a really hard time coping with her emotional issues with him and trying to keep him healthy and worrying about my Dad being sick and trying to be a supportive wife to him and at the same time trying to be a good mother and work a full time job. I feel guilty that there's such a giant burden on my family right now and I'm not really having to deal with it, at least not at the intensity that they are. I need to go change, I smell like an animal hospital, to be continued...