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aaah I was looking back on some entries and looking at different points in my life...it really makes me sad...remembering all the good times and the not so good times. All the ppl I loved and lost. All the ppl I hurt...all the ppl that hurt me and lied to me. Entire pieces of my life that were a lie...
Its so funny to look back and remember all the nice things he did for me and how sweet and amazing he was...if it was all a lie and he was faking it dam hes good. If not than it really sucks that he denys having all those feelings for me and meaning all those things he said. It sucks taht he wants to deny caring about me. Its funny b/c hes never done any of those things for any other girls. Its just so funny. Remembering all the cutsy silly lil thigns he said...the way he looked at me...its just funny. I have no feelings for him anymore...I havent for a while...not after eveything he did to me...not after he destroyed me emotionally,socially, and mentally. I still care for him but not in the same way.
And the two guys who truly love me and were proud to have me in their lives and who treated me like It was a priviledge to be in my precense...I broke their hearts over adn over...
Life is not fair but no one said it was
Its so funny to look back and remember all the nice things he did for me and how sweet and amazing he was...if it was all a lie and he was faking it dam hes good. If not than it really sucks that he denys having all those feelings for me and meaning all those things he said. It sucks taht he wants to deny caring about me. Its funny b/c hes never done any of those things for any other girls. Its just so funny. Remembering all the cutsy silly lil thigns he said...the way he looked at me...its just funny. I have no feelings for him anymore...I havent for a while...not after eveything he did to me...not after he destroyed me emotionally,socially, and mentally. I still care for him but not in the same way.
And the two guys who truly love me and were proud to have me in their lives and who treated me like It was a priviledge to be in my precense...I broke their hearts over adn over...
Life is not fair but no one said it was