as the worm turns....
we started a worm composter last week, which is pretty neat...i did have a dream about my worms, which was maybe not so much about the worms, but they did play a lead role...i was happy to wake up and check on them just to make sure they were alright...lol. they probably wont yield a ton of compost, but we still have the outside bin...it needs a considerable amount of attention though, and the bin we have isnt terribly conducive to turning regularly...we should probably just build our own..
ive been excited all weekend about having new friend social time today. and last week was long time acquaintance, been trying to hang out for YEARS social time...so me being social with new people x2 in a one week period! holy wtf in a good way! were going to coventry to have lunch at tommy's and shop...ive been dying to go to city buddha for a while now, and i cant wait to go again when they get their new stuff in from winter in bali...
dermatologist tomorrow, whoo!!
ive been loving getting out more with the dogs, oh wait, those are new friends too! wow, whats going on over here!? im glad i can contribute by getting us out to new places to explore...and its been nice to get back to some of my old haunts...its also fun to walk with people and see the dogs running in a pack for a change...its an early morning thing, which is sometimes hard depending on whether ive worked the night before, but thats sorta a good thing. i can still go on days i do work, cause it doesnt interfere..the one chick is kinda...well, lets just say i really need to set boundaries and stick with them...shes got a myriad of issues....i can relate to her and empathize to an extent, but man...shes got severe anxiety, and is pretty ocd...like, to the point where she cant really function at all...she just recently got a part time job, and its really effecting her negatively already...her therapist fired her because she doesnt think she can help her..she recommended she work more closely with a psychiatrist, which i think is because she needs to get on some meds that will actually work for her...her options are kinda limited because she has no insurance and is rated through metro, but shes also not quite as open to all meds as she could be...but like, her dogs...its nutty...she will walk them for HOURS if given the opportunity...im not talking the two hour walks we do, im saying, above and beyond that she will go out for several hours more...and sometimes shell take them out individually for a couple hours at a time...she feels guilty like she doesnt do enough for them, and they completely control her life...so now that shes working, and she cant take them out during the day three days a week, she starves herself on the days she works, to punish herself...REALLY? and she cant go out after dark even in the neighborhood cause shes got some sort of ptsd thing going on about that...i havent even asked about that...i figure if she wants to tell me, shell let me know..but shes just got one thing after the other going on...her one dog has this thing for dead animals...hes got this prey instinct and gets completely focused on the things he finds...so hes bitten her TWICE in a couple of weeks...and a third time the other day when she was trying to get him into the bath tub to get cleaned up..he drew blood the first time...and SHE feels guilty about it...and it just goes on and on..i dont even feel like wasting any more energy typing everything out cause its just so insane...but the good thing is i dont even feel compelled to fix this girl...i mean, i feel compassion for her, and empathy, but i know shes not something i even have the desire to deal with in that way...how nice is that?
oh, our dogs bring me so much joy though...i just cant express it enough! even when they are muddy and filthy and wet and stinky...they are the loves of my life!
im also really excited about going to columbus to see my f38 boys play with apop...im really liking the new f38 album, and i think that shawn has really added some great things to the music...and now having jason on guitars...hes a fun dude...his gf is a sweety too..yay! im also looking forward to seeing apop, though i dont have the highest expectations...i have a feeling it might not be too impressive, but ill try to harness that till i have some solid ground to stand on. lol...im driving out on my own, cause i have to work the next day, and they are staying to play the next night in columbus again and then to indiana, iirc...so i cant decide if i want to stay the night and drive back in the am, or just come back after the show...its a tough call, but i promised bando i would decide today...anyone want to drive out with me? lol...
anyway, i think thats it for right now...happy ides of march/buzzard day everyone!
ive been excited all weekend about having new friend social time today. and last week was long time acquaintance, been trying to hang out for YEARS social time...so me being social with new people x2 in a one week period! holy wtf in a good way! were going to coventry to have lunch at tommy's and shop...ive been dying to go to city buddha for a while now, and i cant wait to go again when they get their new stuff in from winter in bali...
dermatologist tomorrow, whoo!!
ive been loving getting out more with the dogs, oh wait, those are new friends too! wow, whats going on over here!? im glad i can contribute by getting us out to new places to explore...and its been nice to get back to some of my old haunts...its also fun to walk with people and see the dogs running in a pack for a change...its an early morning thing, which is sometimes hard depending on whether ive worked the night before, but thats sorta a good thing. i can still go on days i do work, cause it doesnt interfere..the one chick is kinda...well, lets just say i really need to set boundaries and stick with them...shes got a myriad of issues....i can relate to her and empathize to an extent, but man...shes got severe anxiety, and is pretty ocd...like, to the point where she cant really function at all...she just recently got a part time job, and its really effecting her negatively already...her therapist fired her because she doesnt think she can help her..she recommended she work more closely with a psychiatrist, which i think is because she needs to get on some meds that will actually work for her...her options are kinda limited because she has no insurance and is rated through metro, but shes also not quite as open to all meds as she could be...but like, her dogs...its nutty...she will walk them for HOURS if given the opportunity...im not talking the two hour walks we do, im saying, above and beyond that she will go out for several hours more...and sometimes shell take them out individually for a couple hours at a time...she feels guilty like she doesnt do enough for them, and they completely control her life...so now that shes working, and she cant take them out during the day three days a week, she starves herself on the days she works, to punish herself...REALLY? and she cant go out after dark even in the neighborhood cause shes got some sort of ptsd thing going on about that...i havent even asked about that...i figure if she wants to tell me, shell let me know..but shes just got one thing after the other going on...her one dog has this thing for dead animals...hes got this prey instinct and gets completely focused on the things he finds...so hes bitten her TWICE in a couple of weeks...and a third time the other day when she was trying to get him into the bath tub to get cleaned up..he drew blood the first time...and SHE feels guilty about it...and it just goes on and on..i dont even feel like wasting any more energy typing everything out cause its just so insane...but the good thing is i dont even feel compelled to fix this girl...i mean, i feel compassion for her, and empathy, but i know shes not something i even have the desire to deal with in that way...how nice is that?
oh, our dogs bring me so much joy though...i just cant express it enough! even when they are muddy and filthy and wet and stinky...they are the loves of my life!
im also really excited about going to columbus to see my f38 boys play with apop...im really liking the new f38 album, and i think that shawn has really added some great things to the music...and now having jason on guitars...hes a fun dude...his gf is a sweety too..yay! im also looking forward to seeing apop, though i dont have the highest expectations...i have a feeling it might not be too impressive, but ill try to harness that till i have some solid ground to stand on. lol...im driving out on my own, cause i have to work the next day, and they are staying to play the next night in columbus again and then to indiana, iirc...so i cant decide if i want to stay the night and drive back in the am, or just come back after the show...its a tough call, but i promised bando i would decide today...anyone want to drive out with me? lol...
anyway, i think thats it for right now...happy ides of march/buzzard day everyone!