ughhhh
wow. today. i decided tuesday i would show my parents the progress report friday, i should have waited until monday, or showed them when i got it. my mom just sighed and my dad hasn't seen it, and i damn sure don't want to show him. and i was so nervous about showing them and my oral presentation for french, my stomach was in knots and i had to go to the nurse during MCAS. doneski told me to get a blood test for diabetes, that scares me. what scares me more is my parents dont care how sick i feel all the time, and my mom just says im faking it and to deal w/ it, when if she has a fornicating hangnail she stays home from work. whatev. i got my semi ticket, and i don't even want to go, except for that sarah is going so that might make it worth it. everyone urges you to go, bc it's a ''memory'' the only memory ill have of this night is being miserable and not wanting to be there, like the grad. everyone said we'd go as friends in a group, and now everyone has a date. yeah, i dont get it either. so... jackie said she was going to go with pat, and now she says pat really wants to go with me, and i want to believe that so bad lol. but now neither jackie or pat is going. well, hopefully my mom will let me out of the house to go w/ sarah to get a mouse. that will be fun. im sure my punishment for that progress report will be no band, that's ok, no track, i don't care, no semi, i really don't care. otherwise it's no tv or no computer but they won't stick to that. i hope report cards come out soon, bc i know my grades are good, just, those progress reports are from the 1st week of the term. oh well. screw it. i hate this. i wish i could be smart and get good grades. im just average, and sadly for my parents that's all i'll ever be.