Is this what it's like to feel....
I miss Morgan. So much. Ugh. I think reality's finally set in that I have to go 5 fucking weeks without my confidant. I honestly have no idea what I'm going to do without her here.
I feel really useless to my friends. I feel like I'm just never around for them when they need it. Which is a horrible feeling. I'm sure you all understand that yeah, I have a job that I can't do much about, but I still feel like shit about not being around. I'm sorry.
I really hate being alone. I hate not having someone to wake up to and cuddle with and make out with and just be around. I have feeling emo all the fucking time. I hate complaining about this shit. It makes me feel weak. I hate that I feel like I need to have someone cause I know I don't need someone. I just want someone to be cute to me and make out with me and come stay the night with me, falling asleep in my arms. Is that really so much to ask? I give up with this whole concept of love. I give up with romanticism. I have lost all faith in my ideas of love and romance. So, this is me accepting the idea of dying alone. On the bright side, me being alone leaves me hang out time, I suppose.
Cursive is on an indefinate break. What the fuck? Is it really necisarry that all my favorite bands break up? American Nightmare, Orchid, Combat Wounded Veteran, Sunny Day Real Estate, Jawbreaker, Faith No More, Affinity, Breaking Pangaea, Eyes Upon Seperation, Shai Hulud, Refused, The Get Up Kids (soon), and now add Cursive.
This post is depressing as fuck. Sorry.
On the only posi side in my head, Hot Rod Circuit's new CD is fucking amazing. Go buy it.
I feel really useless to my friends. I feel like I'm just never around for them when they need it. Which is a horrible feeling. I'm sure you all understand that yeah, I have a job that I can't do much about, but I still feel like shit about not being around. I'm sorry.
I really hate being alone. I hate not having someone to wake up to and cuddle with and make out with and just be around. I have feeling emo all the fucking time. I hate complaining about this shit. It makes me feel weak. I hate that I feel like I need to have someone cause I know I don't need someone. I just want someone to be cute to me and make out with me and come stay the night with me, falling asleep in my arms. Is that really so much to ask? I give up with this whole concept of love. I give up with romanticism. I have lost all faith in my ideas of love and romance. So, this is me accepting the idea of dying alone. On the bright side, me being alone leaves me hang out time, I suppose.
Cursive is on an indefinate break. What the fuck? Is it really necisarry that all my favorite bands break up? American Nightmare, Orchid, Combat Wounded Veteran, Sunny Day Real Estate, Jawbreaker, Faith No More, Affinity, Breaking Pangaea, Eyes Upon Seperation, Shai Hulud, Refused, The Get Up Kids (soon), and now add Cursive.
This post is depressing as fuck. Sorry.
On the only posi side in my head, Hot Rod Circuit's new CD is fucking amazing. Go buy it.