nevermind
had a ranting post here about teachers as asexual beings, and decided against it. The whole reason why I keep deleting and undeleting journal entries is that this journal was supposed to serve as a reflective piece for my thesis. Whatever, I am trying to keep it about teaching, but it's not the same as when I used to work retail. You know, I audited a course once that detailed the differences between occupations and professions, a whole semester's worth of work, and it boils down to this. An occupation is what you do, a profession becomes who you are.
I always had pride in my job in retail, took it WAY too seriously, but I punched a clock, and that's where my responsibility to my job began and ended.
I feel uncomfortable when I say or do something, and someone who hasn't known me that long, and just knows I am a teacher, will say something like "oh, that's cause you are a teacher" I say, no, that's cause I am naturally controlling.
But they are in a sense, right. I don't have a clock to punch. Sure, our union has specified contract times, but how many teachers, effective ones anyway, are able to arrive at 8:15, teach from 9 to 3:15, leave at 3:30, and everything is caught up? What, you planned for the next day already, you graded and recorded the day's work, you picked up your classroom you are prepared with all handouts, transparencies, whiteboards, for the next day's lessons in 7 subjects?
Who are you people? Where are you people? I need you.
I have been doing this for five years now, and I don't feel any more prepared for the next day, than I did on my first day. I am more confident, more sure about how I teach, what I teach, but I never can get caught up. I come at 7 a.m., look around the room, try to figure out how the day is going to go, make necessary adjustments, work through recesses and lunch, stay after school trying to grade and figure out what lessons went right, what went wrong and how to best reach my kids, and I still think I suck! hahahahah
I watch colleagues arrive at 8:30, leave at 3:30, spend all their free time in the lounge, do they have clones? Please share your secrets, I want to go home.
I always had pride in my job in retail, took it WAY too seriously, but I punched a clock, and that's where my responsibility to my job began and ended.
I feel uncomfortable when I say or do something, and someone who hasn't known me that long, and just knows I am a teacher, will say something like "oh, that's cause you are a teacher" I say, no, that's cause I am naturally controlling.
But they are in a sense, right. I don't have a clock to punch. Sure, our union has specified contract times, but how many teachers, effective ones anyway, are able to arrive at 8:15, teach from 9 to 3:15, leave at 3:30, and everything is caught up? What, you planned for the next day already, you graded and recorded the day's work, you picked up your classroom you are prepared with all handouts, transparencies, whiteboards, for the next day's lessons in 7 subjects?
Who are you people? Where are you people? I need you.
I have been doing this for five years now, and I don't feel any more prepared for the next day, than I did on my first day. I am more confident, more sure about how I teach, what I teach, but I never can get caught up. I come at 7 a.m., look around the room, try to figure out how the day is going to go, make necessary adjustments, work through recesses and lunch, stay after school trying to grade and figure out what lessons went right, what went wrong and how to best reach my kids, and I still think I suck! hahahahah
I watch colleagues arrive at 8:30, leave at 3:30, spend all their free time in the lounge, do they have clones? Please share your secrets, I want to go home.