Ouch...
I emailed a friend tonight.
In it I said and it suddenly hit me with blinding clarity that I am never going to hear mum speak to me again, never see her smile, hear her laugh, shout hiya ma as I slam into the house, hear her call hiya toots in reply.
I am so fucking angry I want to kick out. And I am so fucking sick of being this weak and wibbly person, which is so not me. My facade is crumbling rapidly and I've never felt so totally alone as I do now.
In it I said and it suddenly hit me with blinding clarity that I am never going to hear mum speak to me again, never see her smile, hear her laugh, shout hiya ma as I slam into the house, hear her call hiya toots in reply.
I am so fucking angry I want to kick out. And I am so fucking sick of being this weak and wibbly person, which is so not me. My facade is crumbling rapidly and I've never felt so totally alone as I do now.