Memories....
So I'm finally updating this thing......told you guys I would.
My loyal readers needn't worry any longer.
This update finds me well.
Distressed, a bit, as always, but well.
I've entered into a new relationship which has gotten off to its start for a little over a month now. It's interesting doing this whole 'dating' thing all over again, and nerve-racking I must say. Sometimes I feel like such an idiot, and other times, I feel like everything's falling into place so - hopefully things will continue to just work out as they should.
I continue to find ways to live life without my best friend being with me everyday. Which is really hard.
It's different - uncomfortable - unfamiliar - and well, hell, I just plain hate it.
I mean, sure, I have so many other great people here that I surround myself with that help me so much everyday. And I hope they know how grateful I am for it, continually.
It's just...really difficult to even put into words.
It's like I've told him many a time - I consider him to be like my brother.
When you spend so much and give so much of your life to people - it's difficult when suddenly you don't share you're life with them anymore.
I mentioned this last post I believe but I got the chance to see him for a few hours the other weekend and I had A BALL!
Ah, It was like nothing had changed at all.
But unfortunately, those hours faded away too soon, and it was back here to Campbell - to the Clinic - where I now take over his side of the room ha ha.
And as I write this, I just recieved a phone call from the 3rd member of The Clinic and my other bestest.
Could this night be any better?
It's just what I needed.
Anyway, Marc called me almost crying because of the video I made. :( :( :(
And that conversation ended up lasting for a good 45 minutes.
So yeah, all three of us were talking to each other on the phone and on AIM relaying messages back and forth with me as the mediator. Just like it used to be. Nothing's changed. ha
I MISS IT ALL SO MUCH!
I look foward to the future though.
I know that we will all see each other again.
I love you guys
My loyal readers needn't worry any longer.
This update finds me well.
Distressed, a bit, as always, but well.
I've entered into a new relationship which has gotten off to its start for a little over a month now. It's interesting doing this whole 'dating' thing all over again, and nerve-racking I must say. Sometimes I feel like such an idiot, and other times, I feel like everything's falling into place so - hopefully things will continue to just work out as they should.
I continue to find ways to live life without my best friend being with me everyday. Which is really hard.
It's different - uncomfortable - unfamiliar - and well, hell, I just plain hate it.
I mean, sure, I have so many other great people here that I surround myself with that help me so much everyday. And I hope they know how grateful I am for it, continually.
It's just...really difficult to even put into words.
It's like I've told him many a time - I consider him to be like my brother.
When you spend so much and give so much of your life to people - it's difficult when suddenly you don't share you're life with them anymore.
I mentioned this last post I believe but I got the chance to see him for a few hours the other weekend and I had A BALL!
Ah, It was like nothing had changed at all.
But unfortunately, those hours faded away too soon, and it was back here to Campbell - to the Clinic - where I now take over his side of the room ha ha.
And as I write this, I just recieved a phone call from the 3rd member of The Clinic and my other bestest.
Could this night be any better?
It's just what I needed.
Anyway, Marc called me almost crying because of the video I made. :( :( :(
And that conversation ended up lasting for a good 45 minutes.
So yeah, all three of us were talking to each other on the phone and on AIM relaying messages back and forth with me as the mediator. Just like it used to be. Nothing's changed. ha
I MISS IT ALL SO MUCH!
I look foward to the future though.
I know that we will all see each other again.
I love you guys