Unnoticeable
It seems strange that the one thing in life you never expected to happen to you could very well happen. I guess I should know to expect that one thing to happen but it never really hit home until today when I heard my doctor tell me what she did. The possibility of it never even entered my mind but that one word hit me harder than anything else in this world could. Cancer.....I go back to talk to her more about it Friday and set up my appointment for the specialist. As if I didn't have enough on my mind, I have to worry about rather or not what they found is cancer or not and then make it through the surgery she's planning on my throat. So until I see the specialist about it, I get to take all kinds of pills. Most of them are fairly small but there are some that are pretty damn large. I guess this is what I get for not taking very good care of myself but like I said, I never once thought she would tell me that. And of all places, in my throat.
Here's the run down on it. For those of you that don't know me or have never seen a close up pic of me, I have a small mole in the middle of my neck. It's rather small but for years, I've watched it turn different colors. Mostly brown, black and red. Lately, it has changed texture and the skin around it has changed as well. Now it appears to be a huge bruise. So when I went to the doc this morning to have my blood pressure checked again she noticed it and went off on me for not saying something before. It's bad enough that my health is getting worse with each day, now I have this to worry about as well...And just when things were starting to look up for me. Oh well, shit fucking happpens I guess.
Now, for those of you that I haven't talked to in a while and you're reading this, don't think I didn't tell you just because I haven't said anything to you in a while. Hell, I haven't even told my family that the doc thinks it's cancer. I just told them that I'm going to have it removed for protective reasons. Of course, there are other signs that are leading her to believe it could be cancer but I'd rather not get into that right now or here. That I will reserve for a selective few to know about.
I guess that's it for now. I need to rest. All these meds have me so messed up now, it's not funny. Take care and be well.....someone needs to be.
Here's the run down on it. For those of you that don't know me or have never seen a close up pic of me, I have a small mole in the middle of my neck. It's rather small but for years, I've watched it turn different colors. Mostly brown, black and red. Lately, it has changed texture and the skin around it has changed as well. Now it appears to be a huge bruise. So when I went to the doc this morning to have my blood pressure checked again she noticed it and went off on me for not saying something before. It's bad enough that my health is getting worse with each day, now I have this to worry about as well...And just when things were starting to look up for me. Oh well, shit fucking happpens I guess.
Now, for those of you that I haven't talked to in a while and you're reading this, don't think I didn't tell you just because I haven't said anything to you in a while. Hell, I haven't even told my family that the doc thinks it's cancer. I just told them that I'm going to have it removed for protective reasons. Of course, there are other signs that are leading her to believe it could be cancer but I'd rather not get into that right now or here. That I will reserve for a selective few to know about.
I guess that's it for now. I need to rest. All these meds have me so messed up now, it's not funny. Take care and be well.....someone needs to be.