I'll Give You Forever [12/12] FINAL
Title: I’ll Give You Forever
Pairing: Choi Seunghyunx Kwon Jiyong (GTOP)
Author:dakarasuki97
Rating: This chapter is... NC-17... Fail!smut ahead... read at own risk. ^^
Genre: angst, fluff, romance, idk
Warnings: language and this chapter has smut. but there is fluff too!
Summary: Kwon Jiyong has everything… beauty, popularity, grades, intelligence, money… he’s the guy everyone wants to be. You can’t hate him though because he’s unbelievably kind. But he’s built invisible walls around himself that nobody can break down… that nobody can see… to forget that night four years ago. In fact he hasn’t felt anything real since then and doesn’t want to.
Choi Seunghyun is the new kid at school. He’s instantly accepted into Jiyong’s circle of friends… but still runs headfirst into the walls that Jiyong has so carefully built. Will Seunghyun’s endearing personality break down those barriers or will history repeat itself?
Previous Chapters: 1|2|3|4|5|6|7|8|9|10|11
Holy fuck this chapter is long!!! I hope you don't like die when you read my fail smut... even if you don't like smut, please read the end... it's pretty fluffilicious, if I do say so myself. OMG I had so much fun writing the last part... I was kind of cringing at the smut though... cause I'm so bad at it... tell me if you think I've improved please! Or... if I've gotten worse... actually if you tell me that I might cry... so... please be nice. ♥♥
CHAPTER 12
Recently the two of them had been kind of busy with College work and had not been able to dote upon the other as they usually had. It wasn’t as bad as in high school when Jiyong had been working all those jobs and had to keep up his grades, but, it was difficult for two whose love was so strong.
It was Friday night and they were walking back to their shared apartment. Youngbae had mischievously (or as mischievously as was possible for YB) told them that Seungri and Daesung were going out for a movie marathon at the local theater that wouldn’t end until like 5 in the morning and YB was going to spend the night at his current girlfriend’s house. The will of the others to give them some alone time was so painfully obvious that it brought a goofy smile to Jiyong’s face.
“Wow Bae, you sure are subtle.”
“I have no idea what you’re talking about Jiyong” Youngbae said with a straight face, and then burst out laughing.
“Thanks Bae, we appreciate it, don’t we, Ji?” Seunghyun said smilingly as he wrapped an arm gently around his boyfriend’s thin waist.
“Oh yes!” Jiyong chirped and gave a small sheepish smile. He sprung forth and hugged his best friend and pecked him playfully on the cheek. Youngbae laughed but anyone could tell he was pleased.
“Whoa there Jiyongie, save some for me.” Seunghyun teased to which Ji merely stuck out his tongue adorably. Seunghyun watched as that small pink tongue darted forth from between perfect pink lips and he wanted more than anything to capture it with his own… but realized it probably wasn’t appropriate to start making out with his boyfriend in the middle of the college campus… in front of Youngbae… well, maybe after Youngbae left…
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Seunghyun knew they had been together a year, two months, a week and four days, twelve hours, five minutes, sixteen… seventeen… eighteen seconds. Just kidding on that last part. He didn’t actually count the hours, minutes or seconds… but he did know the year, month and days. Yeah, he was a little more than a little head over heels in love… but… it was Jiyong, so it was understandable.
It was a cool September evening that they had all to themselves. Seunghyun honestly couldn’t be happier. They planned on renting one of those really crappy old horror flicks which was fine with Seunghyun, because those things never scared him, but the loud noises made Ji squeak adorably and snuggle closer to him.
They sat on the couch and turned on the t.v. all the lights were on, because Ji had insisted so “the monsters wouldn’t get him.” Seunghyun had ruffled his hair and promised he would protect him from the monsters and Jiyong knew he’d be safe with Seunghyun, he didn’t want the monsters to get him either… because Jiyong would much rather the monsters get him than have to live without Seunghyun. It was all very simple in his mind.
They started on one end of the couch, next to each other… half way through the movie Jiyong was in Seunghyun’s lap with his head buried in the other’s chest. As much as Seunghyun loved the way their two bodies fit together so perfectly, he didn’t want Jiyong to miss everything and didn’t want him to endure the movie if he wasn’t enjoying it just because he thought he wanted to see it.
He turned the volume down low which caused Jiyong to look up at him with wide, surprised eyes.
“Wha?”
Seunghyun smiled and thought that he would never get tired of seeing the adorable expressions that Jiyong was constantly, unknowingly sending to him.
“Babe, I don’t want you to be scared.”
“I-I’m not.” Jiyong said stuttering a little and Seunghyun instantly knew he was. Jiyong was very special to him, and he had lived most of his life in constant fear, pain and sadness… he didn’t want him to ever return to a time like that.
At first it was a little hard and they couldn’t be that intimate, besides cuddling and kissing. Jiyong had insisted it was okay, but if they tried to take it a little further Seunghyun would see him try to hide the flicker of panic that would into his eyes and as much as he wanted to show Jiyong how much he loved him and make him feel good, it wasn’t worth it until he was ready.
“Babe it’s okay. I love you so much Jiyong, no silly movie could ever compare to you.”
Jiyong smiled and sat up in his lap. Gently he placed his hands on each of Seunghyun’s broad shoulders and met their lips in a gentle kiss. Each closed their eyes and Seunghyun slowly deepened the kiss running his hands through Jiyong’s soft, soft, hair and in turn the younger wrapped his arms around his neck and pressed their bodies closer together.
The way Jiyong’s small hips and flat stomach seemed to fit like a puzzle against Seunghyun’s torso would never cease to amaze him. He could feel the younger’s every movement as their bodies merged together and he couldn’t tell where he stopped and the other began. It was the most electrifying feeling he had ever experienced. It felt so right and… it was better than anything he could ever have dreamed of… these little moments like this where he was Jiyong’s and Jiyong was his.
“I love you so fucking much.” Seunghyun whispered when they broke momentarily for air.
“Fuck, Seunghyun… I… I…”
“What is it babe?”
Suddenly Jiyong pulled away and looked downward not meeting Seunghyun’s eyes… and the older realized there was a light blush coating his lover’s pail cheeks.
“… I wanna…” And Jiyong groaned in embarrassment and buried his head in Seunghyun’s chest.
“What do you want, love?” Seunghyun asked gently, with genuinely no clue what his beloved was going on about.
“Oh my gosh… this is… ahhh… I’m so embarrassed… I want to…” Jiyong rambled, his voice slightly muffled by the fabric. Seunghyun would gladly give Jiyong anything he wanted. He would give him anything, he would do nearly anything for Jiyong at the mere hint of the other, but the elder also knew his lover would never take advantage of him like that.
He slipped a finger underneath Jiyong’s chin and tilted those flushed cheeks and those beautiful eyes to look into his own.
“Kwon Jiyong, you know I would give you anything that is my power to give. I would do anything that you want if it makes you happy and I know you’d do the same for me. So please, whatever it is, tell me. I love you Jiyong and I want to make it so I can always see your beautiful smile.” He lovingly ran his thumb over Jiyong’s jawline causing the other to lean into his touch.
A small shy smile formed on the others lips, though his blush deepened. Seunghyun felt his slight body shift and Jiyong’s lips were brushing against his ear.
“I love you Seunghyun… and I want…” He took a breath, “I want to show you… I want… to make love to you.”
He breathed the last bit out quickly as if he wasn’t sure it would come out understandably and it was the sexiest thing Seunghyun had ever heard. How Jiyong’s voice was light, and nervous was adorable, but it was breathless and telling him that he wanted to make love to him. It took all of his strength and will power to not get it on right there on the couch. No, he had to make sure Jiyong was absolutely sure he wanted this. He knew how guilty Jiyong felt that every time they got a little more intimate he would feel uncomfortable, and he knew that Jiyong wanted to make him as happy just as much as he wanted to make Jiyong happy. But Seunghyun wanted their first time to be completely real and enjoyable for both of them.
He wanted their first time to be all about love and not just getting off.
“Are you… are you sure you want to Ji?” Seunghyun asked running his hands through his boyfriend’s soft hair.
“Yes… I want you, Hyunnie… I want everything about you… please… I know you’ll be gentle and you’ll never hurt me. I thought about this a lot… and at first it scared me because… sex is…” Jiyong’s voice trailed off obviously thinking back to his first and only sexual experience that still haunted him most nights. He shuddered lightly and Seunghyun held him tighter. “… sex… I never understood it… but… I think… I think that with you… it will be good. Because I love you so much and I want to show you… and… whenever you touch me I feel so safe and… and… fuck… I love you Seunghyun. I love you so much I feel like I’m going to explode sometimes. If you… if you want to…”
That was one of the things that saddened Seunghyun the most. Jiyong never could see how beautiful he was. After all those years of abuse, he had like negative feelings of self worth and they were slowly working on that… but Seunghyun just wished, once, Jiyong could see him like he saw him… could see how beautiful he was on the inside and the outside.
Seunghyun placed his two hands on either side of Jiyong’s face lovingly and whispered,
“Babe, of course I want to... I want you so fucking bad… but I only want to if you’re completely ready.” He could wait. He would wait. His dick wasn’t too happy about that concept, but he would never, ever hurt Jiyong. The thought of seeing Jiyong hurting hurt him so deeply… and the thought of Jiyong hurting because of him… the pain was unthinkable.
“Please kiss me.” Jiyong whispered and Seunghyun complied without hesitation. He captured those small, full pink lips and felt Jiyong kiss him back with an eagerness that sent itself straight to his dick. Jiyong granted him entrance to his mouth and the elder instantly deepened the kiss. As their tongues twirled together Jiyong let out a soft, desperate moan.
Seunghyun felt small hands slip underneath his shirt and felt the soft fingertips tracing his well sculpted abs. The feather like touches sent electricity through his body. Slowly, but desperately Seunghyun slipped Jiyong’s shirt up over his head, only breaking the kiss momentarily. The younger instantly mimicked his action, throwing Seunghyun’s discarded shirt on top of his own. The elder moved his mouth to the soft, pale skin of Jiyong’s neck. He licked and kissed at the tender surface and felt Jiyong shudder against him. The feeling of their bare skin sliding against each other was almost too much.
But, this was when Jiyong would usually freeze up; this is when he would see the panic in his lover’s eyes. Seunghyun sent Jiyong a searching gaze, but it was returned with one that was so desperate and full of love and lust that he had never seen before. Fuck it turned him on and he knew that his expression mirrored that of his boyfriend’s.
Seunghyun moved forward for another desperate kiss, trying to convey his love through that connection. They needed to get off this couch… because they each knew in that moment that this was real and was going to happen… and their first time was most definitely not going to be on a couch. Jiyong wrapped his arms around his neck and Seunghyun very carefully placed his arms underneath Jiyong’s legs and rose carrying him, without breaking the kiss, bridal style to their bedroom. Seunghyun placed Jiyong gently on the bed and broke the kiss so he could nip at his collar bone. The younger whined and tangled his fingers in the other’s hair.
Jiyong’s normally so deft fingers fumbled with the belt around Seunghyun’s jeans in his excitement. After what seemed like forever but was probably only like, 5 seconds, Ji flung the belt to the floor and pushed the baggy jeans off of Seunghyun’s hips; they fell to the floor and left his arousal to push desperately at the thin material of his boxers which Jiyong quickly pulled off as well.
Seunghyun groaned as he felt the cool air of his apartment hit his hardened member. He moved Jiyong backwards further onto the bed and guided the other to lie down. Kissing a line from his collarbone to the waist band of his jeans, Seunghyun felt Jiyong’s back arch up and he quickly stripped the other of his jeans and boxers.
Each took a moment to marvel at the other’s beauty before they were kissing eagerly and passionately. Seunghyun flicked his tongue out to lick at Jiyong’s nipple. The younger groaned and tightened his grip around him. Taking this as a good sign Seunghyun swirled his tongue around the small bud.
Jiyong had never experienced this kind of pleasure before. It was mind blowing, and he knew if it was anyone else besides Seunghyun it wouldn’t be nearly as wonderful. Suddenly the elder’s hips lowered and he was grinding their arousals together. The feel of their cocks against each other made him even harder and he groaned loudly.
“Seunghyun… fuck… please… I want you in me… like… five minutes ago…” Jiyong breathed out. He was so sure, he wanted this so bad… and it was evident in his every movement and expression and it thrilled Seunghyun to see his lover like this-not holding back in any way and completely needing him…
Seunghyun gently nudged the other’s leg’s apart. He grabbed the bottle of lube from the night stand that was always there just in case they ever got to this stage… and squirted a generous amount on his fingertips.
“Okay babe, relax for me please.” Seunghyun said kissing Jiyong while locating his so sensitive entrance.
Jiyong’s breath hitched in his throat and he literally had to remind himself to breathe as he felt Seunghyun’s first finger enter him.
“You okay Yongie?” Seunghyun asked concern in his voice. At Jiyong’s small nod he moved his finger inside him, stretching him. Slowly he inserted a second and quickened the pace and reaching a little deeper. Upon hearing Jiyong’s breathy moan he inserted a third. This time reaching deeper and brushing against the bundle of nerves inside his beloved earning him the loudest moan yet and he saw Jiyong’s fingers clutch at the sheets.
“Seunghyun… please… I need you inside me now!” Jiyong said quickly and desperately.
Seunghyun pulled his fingers out and positioned himself at Jiyong’s entrance.
In one swift motion he thrust in. They both inhaled sharply.
“Fuck!” Seunghyun swore as the tight heat enveloped his cock completely. His head was spinning as he leaned over to kiss Jiyong’s lips gently and to get him to relax.
“Fuck Hyunnie… move… please…” Jiyong somehow managed.
Seunghyun thrust in experimentally and it was almost painful how fucking good it felt. The elder honestly didn’t know what was louder, his moan, or Jiyong’s.
Taking this as encouragement, he pulled back and thrust again deeper this time. Jiyong’s hips buckled upward to meet his cock. Seunghyun did it again, even deeper this time, the angle just right to hit Jiyong’s prostate.
The pleasure that coursed through Jiyong’s slight frame assaulted his entire body in huge waves with every one of Seunghyun’s thrusts… the elder hitting his prostate with every thrust.
“Dammit Jiyong… I’m… I’m so fucking close…” Seunghyun yelled going faster and deeper now. He was so close… so close.
“Ahhh… ahh… Seunghyun… I’m… me too… oh fuck…” Jiyong said loudly and breathlessly.
Seunghyun reached down to grab Jiyong’s throbbing cock. He pumped it once and thumbed over the slit at the same time he hit the boy’s prostate at a particularly good angle.
Jiyong came yelling his name.
“Seunghyun!”
And that alone was enough to make the elder come, but the way Jiyong’s muscles tightened around his cock made him see stars as his hot seed filled the younger’s insides.
“Ji-Jiyong!”
They were both breathing heavily and basking in the afterglow of their love making. Seunghyun collapsed next to Jiyong and wasted no time pulling the other close even though their bodies were both slick with sweat, Seunghyun found the damp warmth welcoming.
“I love you Seunghyun. I love you so much.” He said meaning every word. Jiyong shifted in his arms to face him. The younger gently kissed his lips.
“I love you so fucking much Jiyong.” Seunghyun replied running his fingers over Jiyong’s flushed cheek.
A long moment passed filled with their breathing and the intangible love that was so thick between them.
“Marry me.” Seunghyun whispered.
He received no response and realized that Jiyong was fast asleep in his arms. Seunghyun sighed contentedly and closed his eyes, never feeling more whole then when he was with Jiyong tucked safely in his embrace.
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They stumbled out of their room the next day at around 11. Jiyong was wearing his boxer shorts and an oversized tank top, and Seunghyun with sweatpants and a tee shirt. They were greeted by the mischievous smiles of their three friends.
“So… hyungs… how was… the movie?” Seungri asked with wiggling eyebrows taking in their rumbled hair and tired eyes.
“Yeah, hyung… was it… enjoyable?” Daesung asked and all three of them, Youngbae included burst out laughing.
Wordlessly Jiyong flipped them off and spun on his heel back into their bedroom. Seunghyun grinned sheepishly, flashing a quick thumbs up before following his grumpy lover.
5… 4… 3… 2… 1…
Suddenly the door swung open with such passion that it hit the wall and bounced back so hard it nearly took out the one who had opened it. It revealed and grinning Jiyong who was smiling the biggest smile ever and had tears welling up in his eyes. He ran out of the bedroom pulling his boyfriend with him.
“Oh my god… oh my god… oh my fucking god…” Jiyong said running around the room like a crazy person.
He jumped on Seungri and ruffled his hair and kissed him on the cheek. He then flung himself on Daesung and kissed his cheek too and jumped up and down on the couch and then ran over to Youngbae pulled him off his chair and hugged him tightly and shook him lightly. Seunghyun watched all of this with amusement in his eyes and a warm, incredibly happy feeling in his heart.
“GUYS… oh my FUCKING god! I can’t believe this omg… I… I… I FUCKING LOVE YOU so fucking much… damn… oh my god…” Jiyong said his three friends following his movements with their eyes, their heads bobbing up and down like cartoon characters. They were still in shock at seeing Jiyong so genuinely elated.
The little bundle of energy ran to Seunghyun and jumped into his waiting arms laughing and kissing his face.
Five minutes ago…
Jiyong was pouting still from Seungri and Daesung’s stupid questions. He turned around and didn’t see his boyfriend anywhere. Until he looked down. Seunghyun was perched on one knee. He took Jiyong’s hand in his and kissed it.
“Jiyong…” Seunghyun had been planning this for a while… he reached into his pocket and pulled out a small box. He heard Jiyong’s breath hitch in his throat.
“Kwon Jiyong, I want to spend the rest of my life with you… forever and forever, I will be yours… will you be mine? Will you marry me?”
Jiyong’s eyes widened.
He ran from the room without a reply.
Seunghyun’s heart clenched painfully wondering if he had completely messed everything up.
“Of course I’ll marry you! Oh my god!!! Let’s get married Seunghyun, oh my god, I’m so fucking happy.” Tears were now openly streaming from Jiyong’s eyes but for once they were tears of happiness.
And in front of their three friends Jiyong pulled Seunghyun down into a kiss.
Upon breaking away, Jiyong turned around.
“I’m getting married! I’m getting married oh my god, Seunghyunnie and I are… oh my god…”
A moment passed and they all burst out laughing. Seunghyun wrapped his arms around Jiyong’s waist never wanting this moment to end. He slipped the engagement ring over Jiyong’s finger as YB, Ri and Daesung stood and made their way over to them. All laughing and crying with happiness for their friends.
Yes… they promised each other forever… and that’s how it would always be. In that moment they couldn’t be happier. And in the years to come that happiness and love would only grow stronger, because they had a friendship and a love that could never be broken or weakened.
They shared an embrace that would transcend the boundaries of time and last truly forever.
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Damn, it's been... long... lol. I really really enjoyed writing this story and I really hoped you guys enjoyed it. Because, I know you should write for yourself, and I do... I write for myself, but I write for you guys too because I want people to be able to enjoy my stories... In both of my GTOP stories the intimate parts have to be gentle and stuff... haha I kind of want to write some rougher, hot man stuff... but I don't know... I like reading it... but I'll probably fail at writing it... anyway, I really REALLY hope you guys have enjoyed the story even if the smut was fail
Love you guys forever!
Pairing: Choi Seunghyunx Kwon Jiyong (GTOP)
Author:dakarasuki97
Rating: This chapter is... NC-17... Fail!smut ahead... read at own risk. ^^
Genre: angst, fluff, romance, idk
Warnings: language and this chapter has smut. but there is fluff too!
Summary: Kwon Jiyong has everything… beauty, popularity, grades, intelligence, money… he’s the guy everyone wants to be. You can’t hate him though because he’s unbelievably kind. But he’s built invisible walls around himself that nobody can break down… that nobody can see… to forget that night four years ago. In fact he hasn’t felt anything real since then and doesn’t want to.
Choi Seunghyun is the new kid at school. He’s instantly accepted into Jiyong’s circle of friends… but still runs headfirst into the walls that Jiyong has so carefully built. Will Seunghyun’s endearing personality break down those barriers or will history repeat itself?
Previous Chapters: 1|2|3|4|5|6|7|8|9|10|11
Holy fuck this chapter is long!!! I hope you don't like die when you read my fail smut... even if you don't like smut, please read the end... it's pretty fluffilicious, if I do say so myself. OMG I had so much fun writing the last part... I was kind of cringing at the smut though... cause I'm so bad at it... tell me if you think I've improved please! Or... if I've gotten worse... actually if you tell me that I might cry... so... please be nice. ♥♥
CHAPTER 12
Recently the two of them had been kind of busy with College work and had not been able to dote upon the other as they usually had. It wasn’t as bad as in high school when Jiyong had been working all those jobs and had to keep up his grades, but, it was difficult for two whose love was so strong.
It was Friday night and they were walking back to their shared apartment. Youngbae had mischievously (or as mischievously as was possible for YB) told them that Seungri and Daesung were going out for a movie marathon at the local theater that wouldn’t end until like 5 in the morning and YB was going to spend the night at his current girlfriend’s house. The will of the others to give them some alone time was so painfully obvious that it brought a goofy smile to Jiyong’s face.
“Wow Bae, you sure are subtle.”
“I have no idea what you’re talking about Jiyong” Youngbae said with a straight face, and then burst out laughing.
“Thanks Bae, we appreciate it, don’t we, Ji?” Seunghyun said smilingly as he wrapped an arm gently around his boyfriend’s thin waist.
“Oh yes!” Jiyong chirped and gave a small sheepish smile. He sprung forth and hugged his best friend and pecked him playfully on the cheek. Youngbae laughed but anyone could tell he was pleased.
“Whoa there Jiyongie, save some for me.” Seunghyun teased to which Ji merely stuck out his tongue adorably. Seunghyun watched as that small pink tongue darted forth from between perfect pink lips and he wanted more than anything to capture it with his own… but realized it probably wasn’t appropriate to start making out with his boyfriend in the middle of the college campus… in front of Youngbae… well, maybe after Youngbae left…
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Seunghyun knew they had been together a year, two months, a week and four days, twelve hours, five minutes, sixteen… seventeen… eighteen seconds. Just kidding on that last part. He didn’t actually count the hours, minutes or seconds… but he did know the year, month and days. Yeah, he was a little more than a little head over heels in love… but… it was Jiyong, so it was understandable.
It was a cool September evening that they had all to themselves. Seunghyun honestly couldn’t be happier. They planned on renting one of those really crappy old horror flicks which was fine with Seunghyun, because those things never scared him, but the loud noises made Ji squeak adorably and snuggle closer to him.
They sat on the couch and turned on the t.v. all the lights were on, because Ji had insisted so “the monsters wouldn’t get him.” Seunghyun had ruffled his hair and promised he would protect him from the monsters and Jiyong knew he’d be safe with Seunghyun, he didn’t want the monsters to get him either… because Jiyong would much rather the monsters get him than have to live without Seunghyun. It was all very simple in his mind.
They started on one end of the couch, next to each other… half way through the movie Jiyong was in Seunghyun’s lap with his head buried in the other’s chest. As much as Seunghyun loved the way their two bodies fit together so perfectly, he didn’t want Jiyong to miss everything and didn’t want him to endure the movie if he wasn’t enjoying it just because he thought he wanted to see it.
He turned the volume down low which caused Jiyong to look up at him with wide, surprised eyes.
“Wha?”
Seunghyun smiled and thought that he would never get tired of seeing the adorable expressions that Jiyong was constantly, unknowingly sending to him.
“Babe, I don’t want you to be scared.”
“I-I’m not.” Jiyong said stuttering a little and Seunghyun instantly knew he was. Jiyong was very special to him, and he had lived most of his life in constant fear, pain and sadness… he didn’t want him to ever return to a time like that.
At first it was a little hard and they couldn’t be that intimate, besides cuddling and kissing. Jiyong had insisted it was okay, but if they tried to take it a little further Seunghyun would see him try to hide the flicker of panic that would into his eyes and as much as he wanted to show Jiyong how much he loved him and make him feel good, it wasn’t worth it until he was ready.
“Babe it’s okay. I love you so much Jiyong, no silly movie could ever compare to you.”
Jiyong smiled and sat up in his lap. Gently he placed his hands on each of Seunghyun’s broad shoulders and met their lips in a gentle kiss. Each closed their eyes and Seunghyun slowly deepened the kiss running his hands through Jiyong’s soft, soft, hair and in turn the younger wrapped his arms around his neck and pressed their bodies closer together.
The way Jiyong’s small hips and flat stomach seemed to fit like a puzzle against Seunghyun’s torso would never cease to amaze him. He could feel the younger’s every movement as their bodies merged together and he couldn’t tell where he stopped and the other began. It was the most electrifying feeling he had ever experienced. It felt so right and… it was better than anything he could ever have dreamed of… these little moments like this where he was Jiyong’s and Jiyong was his.
“I love you so fucking much.” Seunghyun whispered when they broke momentarily for air.
“Fuck, Seunghyun… I… I…”
“What is it babe?”
Suddenly Jiyong pulled away and looked downward not meeting Seunghyun’s eyes… and the older realized there was a light blush coating his lover’s pail cheeks.
“… I wanna…” And Jiyong groaned in embarrassment and buried his head in Seunghyun’s chest.
“What do you want, love?” Seunghyun asked gently, with genuinely no clue what his beloved was going on about.
“Oh my gosh… this is… ahhh… I’m so embarrassed… I want to…” Jiyong rambled, his voice slightly muffled by the fabric. Seunghyun would gladly give Jiyong anything he wanted. He would give him anything, he would do nearly anything for Jiyong at the mere hint of the other, but the elder also knew his lover would never take advantage of him like that.
He slipped a finger underneath Jiyong’s chin and tilted those flushed cheeks and those beautiful eyes to look into his own.
“Kwon Jiyong, you know I would give you anything that is my power to give. I would do anything that you want if it makes you happy and I know you’d do the same for me. So please, whatever it is, tell me. I love you Jiyong and I want to make it so I can always see your beautiful smile.” He lovingly ran his thumb over Jiyong’s jawline causing the other to lean into his touch.
A small shy smile formed on the others lips, though his blush deepened. Seunghyun felt his slight body shift and Jiyong’s lips were brushing against his ear.
“I love you Seunghyun… and I want…” He took a breath, “I want to show you… I want… to make love to you.”
He breathed the last bit out quickly as if he wasn’t sure it would come out understandably and it was the sexiest thing Seunghyun had ever heard. How Jiyong’s voice was light, and nervous was adorable, but it was breathless and telling him that he wanted to make love to him. It took all of his strength and will power to not get it on right there on the couch. No, he had to make sure Jiyong was absolutely sure he wanted this. He knew how guilty Jiyong felt that every time they got a little more intimate he would feel uncomfortable, and he knew that Jiyong wanted to make him as happy just as much as he wanted to make Jiyong happy. But Seunghyun wanted their first time to be completely real and enjoyable for both of them.
He wanted their first time to be all about love and not just getting off.
“Are you… are you sure you want to Ji?” Seunghyun asked running his hands through his boyfriend’s soft hair.
“Yes… I want you, Hyunnie… I want everything about you… please… I know you’ll be gentle and you’ll never hurt me. I thought about this a lot… and at first it scared me because… sex is…” Jiyong’s voice trailed off obviously thinking back to his first and only sexual experience that still haunted him most nights. He shuddered lightly and Seunghyun held him tighter. “… sex… I never understood it… but… I think… I think that with you… it will be good. Because I love you so much and I want to show you… and… whenever you touch me I feel so safe and… and… fuck… I love you Seunghyun. I love you so much I feel like I’m going to explode sometimes. If you… if you want to…”
That was one of the things that saddened Seunghyun the most. Jiyong never could see how beautiful he was. After all those years of abuse, he had like negative feelings of self worth and they were slowly working on that… but Seunghyun just wished, once, Jiyong could see him like he saw him… could see how beautiful he was on the inside and the outside.
Seunghyun placed his two hands on either side of Jiyong’s face lovingly and whispered,
“Babe, of course I want to... I want you so fucking bad… but I only want to if you’re completely ready.” He could wait. He would wait. His dick wasn’t too happy about that concept, but he would never, ever hurt Jiyong. The thought of seeing Jiyong hurting hurt him so deeply… and the thought of Jiyong hurting because of him… the pain was unthinkable.
“Please kiss me.” Jiyong whispered and Seunghyun complied without hesitation. He captured those small, full pink lips and felt Jiyong kiss him back with an eagerness that sent itself straight to his dick. Jiyong granted him entrance to his mouth and the elder instantly deepened the kiss. As their tongues twirled together Jiyong let out a soft, desperate moan.
Seunghyun felt small hands slip underneath his shirt and felt the soft fingertips tracing his well sculpted abs. The feather like touches sent electricity through his body. Slowly, but desperately Seunghyun slipped Jiyong’s shirt up over his head, only breaking the kiss momentarily. The younger instantly mimicked his action, throwing Seunghyun’s discarded shirt on top of his own. The elder moved his mouth to the soft, pale skin of Jiyong’s neck. He licked and kissed at the tender surface and felt Jiyong shudder against him. The feeling of their bare skin sliding against each other was almost too much.
But, this was when Jiyong would usually freeze up; this is when he would see the panic in his lover’s eyes. Seunghyun sent Jiyong a searching gaze, but it was returned with one that was so desperate and full of love and lust that he had never seen before. Fuck it turned him on and he knew that his expression mirrored that of his boyfriend’s.
Seunghyun moved forward for another desperate kiss, trying to convey his love through that connection. They needed to get off this couch… because they each knew in that moment that this was real and was going to happen… and their first time was most definitely not going to be on a couch. Jiyong wrapped his arms around his neck and Seunghyun very carefully placed his arms underneath Jiyong’s legs and rose carrying him, without breaking the kiss, bridal style to their bedroom. Seunghyun placed Jiyong gently on the bed and broke the kiss so he could nip at his collar bone. The younger whined and tangled his fingers in the other’s hair.
Jiyong’s normally so deft fingers fumbled with the belt around Seunghyun’s jeans in his excitement. After what seemed like forever but was probably only like, 5 seconds, Ji flung the belt to the floor and pushed the baggy jeans off of Seunghyun’s hips; they fell to the floor and left his arousal to push desperately at the thin material of his boxers which Jiyong quickly pulled off as well.
Seunghyun groaned as he felt the cool air of his apartment hit his hardened member. He moved Jiyong backwards further onto the bed and guided the other to lie down. Kissing a line from his collarbone to the waist band of his jeans, Seunghyun felt Jiyong’s back arch up and he quickly stripped the other of his jeans and boxers.
Each took a moment to marvel at the other’s beauty before they were kissing eagerly and passionately. Seunghyun flicked his tongue out to lick at Jiyong’s nipple. The younger groaned and tightened his grip around him. Taking this as a good sign Seunghyun swirled his tongue around the small bud.
Jiyong had never experienced this kind of pleasure before. It was mind blowing, and he knew if it was anyone else besides Seunghyun it wouldn’t be nearly as wonderful. Suddenly the elder’s hips lowered and he was grinding their arousals together. The feel of their cocks against each other made him even harder and he groaned loudly.
“Seunghyun… fuck… please… I want you in me… like… five minutes ago…” Jiyong breathed out. He was so sure, he wanted this so bad… and it was evident in his every movement and expression and it thrilled Seunghyun to see his lover like this-not holding back in any way and completely needing him…
Seunghyun gently nudged the other’s leg’s apart. He grabbed the bottle of lube from the night stand that was always there just in case they ever got to this stage… and squirted a generous amount on his fingertips.
“Okay babe, relax for me please.” Seunghyun said kissing Jiyong while locating his so sensitive entrance.
Jiyong’s breath hitched in his throat and he literally had to remind himself to breathe as he felt Seunghyun’s first finger enter him.
“You okay Yongie?” Seunghyun asked concern in his voice. At Jiyong’s small nod he moved his finger inside him, stretching him. Slowly he inserted a second and quickened the pace and reaching a little deeper. Upon hearing Jiyong’s breathy moan he inserted a third. This time reaching deeper and brushing against the bundle of nerves inside his beloved earning him the loudest moan yet and he saw Jiyong’s fingers clutch at the sheets.
“Seunghyun… please… I need you inside me now!” Jiyong said quickly and desperately.
Seunghyun pulled his fingers out and positioned himself at Jiyong’s entrance.
In one swift motion he thrust in. They both inhaled sharply.
“Fuck!” Seunghyun swore as the tight heat enveloped his cock completely. His head was spinning as he leaned over to kiss Jiyong’s lips gently and to get him to relax.
“Fuck Hyunnie… move… please…” Jiyong somehow managed.
Seunghyun thrust in experimentally and it was almost painful how fucking good it felt. The elder honestly didn’t know what was louder, his moan, or Jiyong’s.
Taking this as encouragement, he pulled back and thrust again deeper this time. Jiyong’s hips buckled upward to meet his cock. Seunghyun did it again, even deeper this time, the angle just right to hit Jiyong’s prostate.
The pleasure that coursed through Jiyong’s slight frame assaulted his entire body in huge waves with every one of Seunghyun’s thrusts… the elder hitting his prostate with every thrust.
“Dammit Jiyong… I’m… I’m so fucking close…” Seunghyun yelled going faster and deeper now. He was so close… so close.
“Ahhh… ahh… Seunghyun… I’m… me too… oh fuck…” Jiyong said loudly and breathlessly.
Seunghyun reached down to grab Jiyong’s throbbing cock. He pumped it once and thumbed over the slit at the same time he hit the boy’s prostate at a particularly good angle.
Jiyong came yelling his name.
“Seunghyun!”
And that alone was enough to make the elder come, but the way Jiyong’s muscles tightened around his cock made him see stars as his hot seed filled the younger’s insides.
“Ji-Jiyong!”
They were both breathing heavily and basking in the afterglow of their love making. Seunghyun collapsed next to Jiyong and wasted no time pulling the other close even though their bodies were both slick with sweat, Seunghyun found the damp warmth welcoming.
“I love you Seunghyun. I love you so much.” He said meaning every word. Jiyong shifted in his arms to face him. The younger gently kissed his lips.
“I love you so fucking much Jiyong.” Seunghyun replied running his fingers over Jiyong’s flushed cheek.
A long moment passed filled with their breathing and the intangible love that was so thick between them.
“Marry me.” Seunghyun whispered.
He received no response and realized that Jiyong was fast asleep in his arms. Seunghyun sighed contentedly and closed his eyes, never feeling more whole then when he was with Jiyong tucked safely in his embrace.
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They stumbled out of their room the next day at around 11. Jiyong was wearing his boxer shorts and an oversized tank top, and Seunghyun with sweatpants and a tee shirt. They were greeted by the mischievous smiles of their three friends.
“So… hyungs… how was… the movie?” Seungri asked with wiggling eyebrows taking in their rumbled hair and tired eyes.
“Yeah, hyung… was it… enjoyable?” Daesung asked and all three of them, Youngbae included burst out laughing.
Wordlessly Jiyong flipped them off and spun on his heel back into their bedroom. Seunghyun grinned sheepishly, flashing a quick thumbs up before following his grumpy lover.
5… 4… 3… 2… 1…
Suddenly the door swung open with such passion that it hit the wall and bounced back so hard it nearly took out the one who had opened it. It revealed and grinning Jiyong who was smiling the biggest smile ever and had tears welling up in his eyes. He ran out of the bedroom pulling his boyfriend with him.
“Oh my god… oh my god… oh my fucking god…” Jiyong said running around the room like a crazy person.
He jumped on Seungri and ruffled his hair and kissed him on the cheek. He then flung himself on Daesung and kissed his cheek too and jumped up and down on the couch and then ran over to Youngbae pulled him off his chair and hugged him tightly and shook him lightly. Seunghyun watched all of this with amusement in his eyes and a warm, incredibly happy feeling in his heart.
“GUYS… oh my FUCKING god! I can’t believe this omg… I… I… I FUCKING LOVE YOU so fucking much… damn… oh my god…” Jiyong said his three friends following his movements with their eyes, their heads bobbing up and down like cartoon characters. They were still in shock at seeing Jiyong so genuinely elated.
The little bundle of energy ran to Seunghyun and jumped into his waiting arms laughing and kissing his face.
Five minutes ago…
Jiyong was pouting still from Seungri and Daesung’s stupid questions. He turned around and didn’t see his boyfriend anywhere. Until he looked down. Seunghyun was perched on one knee. He took Jiyong’s hand in his and kissed it.
“Jiyong…” Seunghyun had been planning this for a while… he reached into his pocket and pulled out a small box. He heard Jiyong’s breath hitch in his throat.
“Kwon Jiyong, I want to spend the rest of my life with you… forever and forever, I will be yours… will you be mine? Will you marry me?”
Jiyong’s eyes widened.
He ran from the room without a reply.
Seunghyun’s heart clenched painfully wondering if he had completely messed everything up.
“Of course I’ll marry you! Oh my god!!! Let’s get married Seunghyun, oh my god, I’m so fucking happy.” Tears were now openly streaming from Jiyong’s eyes but for once they were tears of happiness.
And in front of their three friends Jiyong pulled Seunghyun down into a kiss.
Upon breaking away, Jiyong turned around.
“I’m getting married! I’m getting married oh my god, Seunghyunnie and I are… oh my god…”
A moment passed and they all burst out laughing. Seunghyun wrapped his arms around Jiyong’s waist never wanting this moment to end. He slipped the engagement ring over Jiyong’s finger as YB, Ri and Daesung stood and made their way over to them. All laughing and crying with happiness for their friends.
Yes… they promised each other forever… and that’s how it would always be. In that moment they couldn’t be happier. And in the years to come that happiness and love would only grow stronger, because they had a friendship and a love that could never be broken or weakened.
They shared an embrace that would transcend the boundaries of time and last truly forever.
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Damn, it's been... long... lol. I really really enjoyed writing this story and I really hoped you guys enjoyed it. Because, I know you should write for yourself, and I do... I write for myself, but I write for you guys too because I want people to be able to enjoy my stories... In both of my GTOP stories the intimate parts have to be gentle and stuff... haha I kind of want to write some rougher, hot man stuff... but I don't know... I like reading it... but I'll probably fail at writing it... anyway, I really REALLY hope you guys have enjoyed the story even if the smut was fail
Love you guys forever!