I'll Give You Forever [8/?]
Title: I’ll Give You Forever
Pairing: Choi Seunghyunx Kwon Jiyong (GTOP)
Author:dakarasuki97
Rating: PG-13 right now…
Genre: angst, fluff, romance, idk
Warnings: language so far~~~
Summary: Kwon Jiyong has everything… beauty, popularity, grades, intelligence, money… he’s the guy everyone wants to be. You can’t hate him though because he’s unbelievably kind. But he’s built invisible walls around himself that nobody can break down… that nobody can see… to forget that night four years ago. In fact he hasn’t felt anything real since then and doesn’t want to.
Choi Seunghyun is the new kid at school. He’s instantly accepted into Jiyong’s circle of friends… but still runs headfirst into the walls that Jiyong has so carefully built. Will Seunghyun’s endearing personality break down those barriers or will history repeat itself?
Previous Chapters: 1|2|3|4|5|6|7
CHAPTER 8
Jiyong woke up the next morning with a killer headache, but that wasn’t the part that bothered him. There was something surrounding him; warmth that he couldn’t pull away from. Then he remembered last night and nearly groaned aloud. How could he have been so weak in front of someone else? He wanted to hide. So he did… he nuzzled himself further into Seunghyun’s strong embrace. He tucked his head in between his shoulder and chest and inhaled his scent which was a pleasant mix of mint and coffee. Seunghyun must have felt the shifting in his arms as he awoke and looked down at the trembling bundle in his arms.
Gently Seunghyun brought his hand up to stroke Jiyong’s soft hair comfortingly. At first the younger tensed but slowly relaxed into the touch.
“Seunghyun?” Jiyong whispered slowly. His voice muffled by the fabric of Seunghyun’s shirt, but still understandable.
“Yeah Ji?” He asked.
“Why are you here? I don’t understand…” And he sounded so lost and hopeless, Seunghyun realized that he really didn’t.
“Because I’m your friend.”
Jiyong shook his head still not looking at him.
“That doesn’t make any sense.”
“Sure it does, Ji.” Seunghyun gently placed his hand under Jiyong’s chin, slowly lifting those pretty brown eyes to meet his.
“You’re the best friend I’ve ever had… and… I love you.”
Jiyong’s eyes widened at this. And suddenly he was burying himself deeper in Seunghyun’s embrace.
“Ji look at me.” Seunghyun nearly begged, worried at this new response and nervous that he was taking it the wrong way. Jiyong slowly lifted his head and Seunghyun saw that there were crystalline tears tracing pathways down his cheeks.
Seeing those tears broke Seunghyun’s heart. It really did. Because he loved Jiyong. And because he wanted to take all the pain in his heart away and suffer it for him, so he wouldn’t have to.
He pulled the younger even closer to him and kissed the top of his head.
“… Seunghyun… will you… will you…”
“What is it Ji?”
Shy brown eyes peaked up at him through thick eyelashes.
“… will you… it’s stupid… but can you… say it… again?”
Seunghyun smiled sadly.
“I love you Kwon Jiyong.”
“Really?”
“I love you Ji, you are the most amazing, kind, and wonderful person. You are beautiful inside and out, and you deserve to be told that every single day. You are a light that lights up so many people’s lives, and I love you.”
Jiyong raised his head and sat up straighter, tears still forming small pools in the corners of his eyes.
Gently and slowly Seunghyun felt soft, full lips on his. His heart started beating uncontrollably and he wrapped his arms around Jiyong’s waist and kissed him back carefully.
Jiyong raised his arms to wrap them around Seunghyun’s neck and run his fingers through his short hair.
They broke to catch their breath and Seunghyun leaned forward and kissed the tears from Jiyong’s cheeks until Jiyong stopped crying.
Then Jiyong snuggled into his chest again because he felt protected like that. And he was being selfish and horrible, but he liked the way it felt.
He closed his eyes his heart pounding in his chest.
“I’m trusting you Choi Seunghyun… please don’t leave…”
Seunghyun smiled sadly, tears burning behind his eyes but not yet coming forward.
“I’ll never leave you Jiyong. You’re stuck with me.”
“For now… but you don’t know everything.”
Seunghyun was silent for a while before answering…
“Then tell me.”
It was silent after that and Seunghyun realized Jiyong had fallen asleep. He had his trust. He had somehow earned his trust. He did not know yet if he had earned his love, but that could come later. Jiyong had his heart and he had his life… whether he knew it or not.
… and they had kissed.
Squee.
(A/N: Who likes Hyunnie’s internal gay squeeing? Lol!)
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"Hyung?"
Seunghyun turned the volume on the t.v. down so he could hear Jiyong's soft voice. For the past few hours they had sat snuggled on the couch, Jiyong positioned comfortably in Seunghyun's lap and Seunghyun enjoyed the warm weight and the way Jiyong seemed to fit so perfectly against him. They watched one of those romantic comedies; laughing and sniffling at the appropriate parts. And Seunghyun felt that while Ji's walls were not yet completely down... They were definitely making progress. These past few hours had been the most amazing he had ever had. His heart still skipped a beat when he heard the younger's adorable laugh. And he couldn't stop thinking back to that kiss. That wonderful electrifying feeling that coursed through his body and the way Jiyong's soft pink lips moved against his. It was amazing. But he was scared it wouldn't last. He was scared that Jiyong would lock him out again. But he would stay at his side no matter what. He realized that he loved Jiyong. He fucking loved the boy and he wanted Ji's love but if the other could not give that to him... Easing his pain (even if just a little) would suffice… wow he really did sound like a lovesick puppy. He just had to hope Ji wasn’t one of those puppy kickers.
"Yah Ji?"
“Sometimes you get this far away look in your eyes. Like you’re remembering something unpleasant. What is it? You’re so genuinely nice to everyone… something that for me is a learned habit. I like that about you Seunghyun.”
Seunghyun’s heart warmed. But he also knew what Jiyong was doing. He wanted Seunghyun to share his life with him before he would share his own. But that was okay, because there was little the elder wouldn’t do to understand what was hurting his love so much. Seunghyun exhaled and shifted so that his back was against the arm of the couch and Jiyong was lying against his chest his slim body tucked between his legs. (A/N: Not sexually lol!)
“I have the best parents in the world. They have loved my older sister and me unconditionally. I came out to them a couple years ago and they really didn’t care. My mom thinks it’s cute actually and keeps bugging me about getting a boyfriend… and my dad’s best friend throughout college was gay so he’s not judging. He’s like… Youngbae, completely straight but all his friends were gay haha. So I’ve never had to hide myself around them. They treat me like an equal rather than a child while still acting like parents and I’ve learned strong morals from them. They taught me to never judge and never treat anyone, as clichéd as this sounds, in a way that I wouldn’t want to be treated. I owe everything to them.”
Jiyong blinked up at him while he was talking. Seunghyun liked the way the younger seemed to be latched on to his every word. It wasn’t often that someone actually listened to him speak. Actually, nobody had besides his parents and sister before coming to this school.
“When I was younger though, I was pretty overweight and people made fun of me a lot. Any fat joke you’ve ever heard, I’ve heard it too, about a dozen times, being at the butt of it. As I grew up, I lost the weight but I was still really insecure and self conscious. I guess I drew within myself and never spoke out to anyone… and nobody ever tried to reach out to me. So I was alone most of the time, except for my family. I had one friend before I moved here. But he wasn’t much of a friend. He dumped me for the jocks on the football team. When I get that faraway look in my eye it’s because I’m remembering all those days I spent alone staring at the wall or something because I had nowhere else to look. But I’m thinking about how happy I am now, with everyone here… with you… because you were the first person to ever reach out to me. I’m still pretty shy, but I don’t feel like I have to hide anymore when I’m with you…”
Seunghyun finished a bright red blush coating his cheeks. Jiyong reached up and stroked his cheek gently running his thumb gently over the reddened skin. Jiyong smiled a small, content smile.
“Thank you Seunghyun.”
And then he said something that was enough to bring tears to his eyes. No it wasn’t the “L” word, but it was still something he’d never dreamt of hearing before.
“I’m so lucky to have found you.”
And Jiyong meant it. Seunghyun wrapped his arms around the smaller and hugged to his chest.
“Ji… I’m the lucky one.” Seunghyun could feel him smiling into his shirt.
And then he got nervous all of a sudden, and his throat dried up… because there was a question he really, really wanted to ask, but wasn’t sure of the answer.
“Jiyong…”
“Hmm??”
“Ummm… Errr… Ehhhh…”
“Hyung?”
“Oh right, sorry… erm…. Will you… like, do you, you know, like wanna… ugh, dowannabemyboyfriend?”
Jiyong looked at him with puzzled eyes.
“Wha?” He said intelligently. Seunghyun took a deep breath.
“Do… you… wanna… be… my……… boyfriend?”
It took a long agonizing moment, but Jiyong smiled the largest smile Seunghyun had ever seen him smile. His eyes lit up and he was so beautiful. He wanted to make him smile like this all the time.
And then he said the most beautiful word ever invented.
“Yes.”
Seunghyun tilted his head upward and kissed him gently. He was so sosososoosos happy. His stomach was doing summersaults and his head was spinning and his heart was pounding and he’d never ever ever felt like this before. Jiyong kissed him back just as gently.
Slowly Seunghyun deepened the kiss and Jiyong granted him entrance to his mouth. Seunghyun wanted to know every bit of Jiyong and Jiyong, surprisingly found himself wanting Seunghyun to know.
They pulled back.
“I love you… Ji…” Seunghyun said, not quite knowing how much the younger needed to hear it.
“… I… I… think I… love you too… Seunghyun.”
Seunghyun’s eyes widened. Did he just? OMG HE DID!!! This did bring tears to his eyes. He spent so long wondering if he’d ever hear someone say that to him that wasn’t his parents or sister. And the most amazing guy just did! Well he said “I think” but it was close enough!
“I wish Taehyun could meet you…” He said so softly Seunghyun almost missed it. He still wondered who this Taehyun was… but… he couldn’t let that down him. Jiyong said he thought he loved him. Ah!
A/N: HOW WAS THAT??? Like, that was pretty much not a cliffie right????
Pairing: Choi Seunghyunx Kwon Jiyong (GTOP)
Author:dakarasuki97
Rating: PG-13 right now…
Genre: angst, fluff, romance, idk
Warnings: language so far~~~
Summary: Kwon Jiyong has everything… beauty, popularity, grades, intelligence, money… he’s the guy everyone wants to be. You can’t hate him though because he’s unbelievably kind. But he’s built invisible walls around himself that nobody can break down… that nobody can see… to forget that night four years ago. In fact he hasn’t felt anything real since then and doesn’t want to.
Choi Seunghyun is the new kid at school. He’s instantly accepted into Jiyong’s circle of friends… but still runs headfirst into the walls that Jiyong has so carefully built. Will Seunghyun’s endearing personality break down those barriers or will history repeat itself?
Previous Chapters: 1|2|3|4|5|6|7
CHAPTER 8
Jiyong woke up the next morning with a killer headache, but that wasn’t the part that bothered him. There was something surrounding him; warmth that he couldn’t pull away from. Then he remembered last night and nearly groaned aloud. How could he have been so weak in front of someone else? He wanted to hide. So he did… he nuzzled himself further into Seunghyun’s strong embrace. He tucked his head in between his shoulder and chest and inhaled his scent which was a pleasant mix of mint and coffee. Seunghyun must have felt the shifting in his arms as he awoke and looked down at the trembling bundle in his arms.
Gently Seunghyun brought his hand up to stroke Jiyong’s soft hair comfortingly. At first the younger tensed but slowly relaxed into the touch.
“Seunghyun?” Jiyong whispered slowly. His voice muffled by the fabric of Seunghyun’s shirt, but still understandable.
“Yeah Ji?” He asked.
“Why are you here? I don’t understand…” And he sounded so lost and hopeless, Seunghyun realized that he really didn’t.
“Because I’m your friend.”
Jiyong shook his head still not looking at him.
“That doesn’t make any sense.”
“Sure it does, Ji.” Seunghyun gently placed his hand under Jiyong’s chin, slowly lifting those pretty brown eyes to meet his.
“You’re the best friend I’ve ever had… and… I love you.”
Jiyong’s eyes widened at this. And suddenly he was burying himself deeper in Seunghyun’s embrace.
“Ji look at me.” Seunghyun nearly begged, worried at this new response and nervous that he was taking it the wrong way. Jiyong slowly lifted his head and Seunghyun saw that there were crystalline tears tracing pathways down his cheeks.
Seeing those tears broke Seunghyun’s heart. It really did. Because he loved Jiyong. And because he wanted to take all the pain in his heart away and suffer it for him, so he wouldn’t have to.
He pulled the younger even closer to him and kissed the top of his head.
“… Seunghyun… will you… will you…”
“What is it Ji?”
Shy brown eyes peaked up at him through thick eyelashes.
“… will you… it’s stupid… but can you… say it… again?”
Seunghyun smiled sadly.
“I love you Kwon Jiyong.”
“Really?”
“I love you Ji, you are the most amazing, kind, and wonderful person. You are beautiful inside and out, and you deserve to be told that every single day. You are a light that lights up so many people’s lives, and I love you.”
Jiyong raised his head and sat up straighter, tears still forming small pools in the corners of his eyes.
Gently and slowly Seunghyun felt soft, full lips on his. His heart started beating uncontrollably and he wrapped his arms around Jiyong’s waist and kissed him back carefully.
Jiyong raised his arms to wrap them around Seunghyun’s neck and run his fingers through his short hair.
They broke to catch their breath and Seunghyun leaned forward and kissed the tears from Jiyong’s cheeks until Jiyong stopped crying.
Then Jiyong snuggled into his chest again because he felt protected like that. And he was being selfish and horrible, but he liked the way it felt.
He closed his eyes his heart pounding in his chest.
“I’m trusting you Choi Seunghyun… please don’t leave…”
Seunghyun smiled sadly, tears burning behind his eyes but not yet coming forward.
“I’ll never leave you Jiyong. You’re stuck with me.”
“For now… but you don’t know everything.”
Seunghyun was silent for a while before answering…
“Then tell me.”
It was silent after that and Seunghyun realized Jiyong had fallen asleep. He had his trust. He had somehow earned his trust. He did not know yet if he had earned his love, but that could come later. Jiyong had his heart and he had his life… whether he knew it or not.
… and they had kissed.
Squee.
(A/N: Who likes Hyunnie’s internal gay squeeing? Lol!)
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"Hyung?"
Seunghyun turned the volume on the t.v. down so he could hear Jiyong's soft voice. For the past few hours they had sat snuggled on the couch, Jiyong positioned comfortably in Seunghyun's lap and Seunghyun enjoyed the warm weight and the way Jiyong seemed to fit so perfectly against him. They watched one of those romantic comedies; laughing and sniffling at the appropriate parts. And Seunghyun felt that while Ji's walls were not yet completely down... They were definitely making progress. These past few hours had been the most amazing he had ever had. His heart still skipped a beat when he heard the younger's adorable laugh. And he couldn't stop thinking back to that kiss. That wonderful electrifying feeling that coursed through his body and the way Jiyong's soft pink lips moved against his. It was amazing. But he was scared it wouldn't last. He was scared that Jiyong would lock him out again. But he would stay at his side no matter what. He realized that he loved Jiyong. He fucking loved the boy and he wanted Ji's love but if the other could not give that to him... Easing his pain (even if just a little) would suffice… wow he really did sound like a lovesick puppy. He just had to hope Ji wasn’t one of those puppy kickers.
"Yah Ji?"
“Sometimes you get this far away look in your eyes. Like you’re remembering something unpleasant. What is it? You’re so genuinely nice to everyone… something that for me is a learned habit. I like that about you Seunghyun.”
Seunghyun’s heart warmed. But he also knew what Jiyong was doing. He wanted Seunghyun to share his life with him before he would share his own. But that was okay, because there was little the elder wouldn’t do to understand what was hurting his love so much. Seunghyun exhaled and shifted so that his back was against the arm of the couch and Jiyong was lying against his chest his slim body tucked between his legs. (A/N: Not sexually lol!)
“I have the best parents in the world. They have loved my older sister and me unconditionally. I came out to them a couple years ago and they really didn’t care. My mom thinks it’s cute actually and keeps bugging me about getting a boyfriend… and my dad’s best friend throughout college was gay so he’s not judging. He’s like… Youngbae, completely straight but all his friends were gay haha. So I’ve never had to hide myself around them. They treat me like an equal rather than a child while still acting like parents and I’ve learned strong morals from them. They taught me to never judge and never treat anyone, as clichéd as this sounds, in a way that I wouldn’t want to be treated. I owe everything to them.”
Jiyong blinked up at him while he was talking. Seunghyun liked the way the younger seemed to be latched on to his every word. It wasn’t often that someone actually listened to him speak. Actually, nobody had besides his parents and sister before coming to this school.
“When I was younger though, I was pretty overweight and people made fun of me a lot. Any fat joke you’ve ever heard, I’ve heard it too, about a dozen times, being at the butt of it. As I grew up, I lost the weight but I was still really insecure and self conscious. I guess I drew within myself and never spoke out to anyone… and nobody ever tried to reach out to me. So I was alone most of the time, except for my family. I had one friend before I moved here. But he wasn’t much of a friend. He dumped me for the jocks on the football team. When I get that faraway look in my eye it’s because I’m remembering all those days I spent alone staring at the wall or something because I had nowhere else to look. But I’m thinking about how happy I am now, with everyone here… with you… because you were the first person to ever reach out to me. I’m still pretty shy, but I don’t feel like I have to hide anymore when I’m with you…”
Seunghyun finished a bright red blush coating his cheeks. Jiyong reached up and stroked his cheek gently running his thumb gently over the reddened skin. Jiyong smiled a small, content smile.
“Thank you Seunghyun.”
And then he said something that was enough to bring tears to his eyes. No it wasn’t the “L” word, but it was still something he’d never dreamt of hearing before.
“I’m so lucky to have found you.”
And Jiyong meant it. Seunghyun wrapped his arms around the smaller and hugged to his chest.
“Ji… I’m the lucky one.” Seunghyun could feel him smiling into his shirt.
And then he got nervous all of a sudden, and his throat dried up… because there was a question he really, really wanted to ask, but wasn’t sure of the answer.
“Jiyong…”
“Hmm??”
“Ummm… Errr… Ehhhh…”
“Hyung?”
“Oh right, sorry… erm…. Will you… like, do you, you know, like wanna… ugh, dowannabemyboyfriend?”
Jiyong looked at him with puzzled eyes.
“Wha?” He said intelligently. Seunghyun took a deep breath.
“Do… you… wanna… be… my……… boyfriend?”
It took a long agonizing moment, but Jiyong smiled the largest smile Seunghyun had ever seen him smile. His eyes lit up and he was so beautiful. He wanted to make him smile like this all the time.
And then he said the most beautiful word ever invented.
“Yes.”
Seunghyun tilted his head upward and kissed him gently. He was so sosososoosos happy. His stomach was doing summersaults and his head was spinning and his heart was pounding and he’d never ever ever felt like this before. Jiyong kissed him back just as gently.
Slowly Seunghyun deepened the kiss and Jiyong granted him entrance to his mouth. Seunghyun wanted to know every bit of Jiyong and Jiyong, surprisingly found himself wanting Seunghyun to know.
They pulled back.
“I love you… Ji…” Seunghyun said, not quite knowing how much the younger needed to hear it.
“… I… I… think I… love you too… Seunghyun.”
Seunghyun’s eyes widened. Did he just? OMG HE DID!!! This did bring tears to his eyes. He spent so long wondering if he’d ever hear someone say that to him that wasn’t his parents or sister. And the most amazing guy just did! Well he said “I think” but it was close enough!
“I wish Taehyun could meet you…” He said so softly Seunghyun almost missed it. He still wondered who this Taehyun was… but… he couldn’t let that down him. Jiyong said he thought he loved him. Ah!
A/N: HOW WAS THAT??? Like, that was pretty much not a cliffie right????