Why I Need The Internet
It's sort of an addiction I suppose, but for a very reasonable explanation. Staying connected. Since Sunday evening, I've been having a very flaky connection. The "landline" is tied to the connection. My iPhone is tied to this connection. The only form of entertainment I have outside of books (which I read only before bed) is videos on hulu and Netflix Instant Watch. I have DVDs coming in but it's only 3 hours worth and the internet out far more often than that.
So when I lose the connection, I am -really- bored. And wouldn't you know it, it's happening on the week I'm not working. The week I'm broke so can't really go anywhere.
But that's the petty business. The MAIN issue is the social networks. I've joined a few games in IRC, and have made some friends. I keep gmail, twitter and Facebook open the whole time I'm at home. I'm not constantly staring at IRC, gmail, twitter or Facebook, but I know they're there and it's nice to know they are.
It's nice to know I can text my husband or get a text from my husband if it's just to say hi.
I have none of those things right now. I have a message in Facebook asking me to call someone. I can't see the full message (my fault for not looking when I DID have a connection for the hour I did) and I can't call anyone anyway.
And I'll say it. My free time revolves around the internet. So what? I'm not being anti-social. I'm using it to KEEP pseudo social while I wait to be for real social. So I'm a little more than annoyed. I'm infuriated. I'm lonely.
Again, the timing is the worst. If it was last week or next week, I'd be working and wouldn't mind the few hours without internet. It'd help me get to bed earlier. BUT. I don't HAVE to go to bed early this week. I have ALL day and I'm being denied the things that keep me busy and creative. I have no projects to work on and no inspiration to do anything of my own ideas, otherwise I could kill some time in Photoshop.
Bored, infuriated and lonely. That's me as long as this connection keeps flaking out on me. It's not pathetic. All of my friends are either an hour away or a day's flight away. My husband is day's flight away and I have NO instant connection with him.
So when I lose the connection, I am -really- bored. And wouldn't you know it, it's happening on the week I'm not working. The week I'm broke so can't really go anywhere.
But that's the petty business. The MAIN issue is the social networks. I've joined a few games in IRC, and have made some friends. I keep gmail, twitter and Facebook open the whole time I'm at home. I'm not constantly staring at IRC, gmail, twitter or Facebook, but I know they're there and it's nice to know they are.
It's nice to know I can text my husband or get a text from my husband if it's just to say hi.
I have none of those things right now. I have a message in Facebook asking me to call someone. I can't see the full message (my fault for not looking when I DID have a connection for the hour I did) and I can't call anyone anyway.
And I'll say it. My free time revolves around the internet. So what? I'm not being anti-social. I'm using it to KEEP pseudo social while I wait to be for real social. So I'm a little more than annoyed. I'm infuriated. I'm lonely.
Again, the timing is the worst. If it was last week or next week, I'd be working and wouldn't mind the few hours without internet. It'd help me get to bed earlier. BUT. I don't HAVE to go to bed early this week. I have ALL day and I'm being denied the things that keep me busy and creative. I have no projects to work on and no inspiration to do anything of my own ideas, otherwise I could kill some time in Photoshop.
Bored, infuriated and lonely. That's me as long as this connection keeps flaking out on me. It's not pathetic. All of my friends are either an hour away or a day's flight away. My husband is day's flight away and I have NO instant connection with him.