un momento cosi

[daizygoddess]

 The idea of the end of the world came up in conversation yesterday and I've been sort of pondering it today.  What happened was that someone was talking about the theory that our galaxy would implode or something in the year 2012, and my first response was something like, "well if that's the case then I'll change my plans".  So I was thinking today, if you only had three years left (maybe not because of the end of the world, something more realistic like a terminal disease...anything more plausible) would that knowledge make you change what you're doing?  And if so, should you be doing what you're doing right now, if it's not really what you want?  I'm not sure how much sense this makes.  But today I was thinking about how we do things that we don't really want to like going to school or working crappy jobs or just "paying our dues" in the hope that our time of suffering will eventually lead us to the ideal position or career or whatever.  And I get that it's not really realistic to live everyday like it's your last and only do what you want because we do need education and experience and the things that come from the unenjoyable periods in order to achieve certain things.  But I just couldn't help but think that it would be such a waste to put in all that prep-time and never get to see that future that you planned and waited so long for.

So I'm not really sure where all this pondering leaves me.