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Do you ever feel like a situation is so far beyond your control that you can't do anything at all?
I swear sometimes it feels like the forces are conspiring against me to fuck my shit up. The exact wrong thing happens at the exact wrong time I swear it. It happens too often. Something MUST be amiss.
It just makes me so unbelievably frustrated when these things happen. Like I'm not in control of ANYTHING at all. It's just like luck at its WORST.
I mean I do believe in fate, but at least the illusion of control is there and it helps people feel they have control over things, which is nice. But sometimes fate is so apparent and it pisses me off.
So yes I've hit the big one-eight and things have changed some ways. I feel I've made some adult-like progress insofar but I could be wrong. I just wish I had some cool eighteen year old things to go and do but I don't and its kind of depressing. =/
I think I need a change of scenery.
It's always the same hastles everyday with school and work and the whole shabang. I need something new.
I swear sometimes it feels like the forces are conspiring against me to fuck my shit up. The exact wrong thing happens at the exact wrong time I swear it. It happens too often. Something MUST be amiss.
It just makes me so unbelievably frustrated when these things happen. Like I'm not in control of ANYTHING at all. It's just like luck at its WORST.
I mean I do believe in fate, but at least the illusion of control is there and it helps people feel they have control over things, which is nice. But sometimes fate is so apparent and it pisses me off.
So yes I've hit the big one-eight and things have changed some ways. I feel I've made some adult-like progress insofar but I could be wrong. I just wish I had some cool eighteen year old things to go and do but I don't and its kind of depressing. =/
I think I need a change of scenery.
It's always the same hastles everyday with school and work and the whole shabang. I need something new.