...just let me be..
gosh!!
parents can be so pushy sometimes. its not enough for me to get good grades, to follow all thier rules, work..and do all the other shit i do, a lot of it for them...theyre always expecting more. i dont know what im going to have to do till they see that im trying to please them. i dont know when it will be enough, but i dont really know how much more i can do.
because ive had other things going on, such as schoool, tests papers, youth group other things..and i havent gotten around to finishing this stupid scholarship through my dads work iim a spoiled brat who thinks i have everything comming to me, and i need to get a grip and realize there are people out there who dont live like we do.
um no shit. i dont know where she gets off saying shit like that to me. do i not do a lot of community service...and i enjoy it. i do it because i know there are people out there less fortunate than me and i enjoy giving back. WTF..she knows this. i already fucking asked for my transcripts and teacher recs. i havent gotten them back yet...but i got started on that at least 2/3 weeeks ago. It just pisses me off..and know this scholarsship is a lot of money, and she thinks im blowing it off. im really not, ive just been busy and dont always remember about it.
and then she automattically tells me what im selfish or that i always think only about me and never about others in the world. right. ok. i know thats not true. she can be so hurtful sometimes in the things she says.
and then she blames it on me having a boyfriend...my grades havent fallen, im still in bbyo, im still going to temple...i dont really know how being happy is a bad thing. but whatever. shes just..makes me so angry.
i really just want all this fighitng to stop its been goign on for like...a few months now, and things havent been gettign better. i dont know what else to do. so she might not like ALLLL of my decisions. but yes. i am 18 and i am living MY life how I want to live it. im safe, im careful, i do my work....theres nothing she has to worry about. yet shes on me all the time like iim freaking 5. you tell me i need to start doign mroe things on my own, and acting my age. then fuckign give me the room to do so.
parents can be so pushy sometimes. its not enough for me to get good grades, to follow all thier rules, work..and do all the other shit i do, a lot of it for them...theyre always expecting more. i dont know what im going to have to do till they see that im trying to please them. i dont know when it will be enough, but i dont really know how much more i can do.
because ive had other things going on, such as schoool, tests papers, youth group other things..and i havent gotten around to finishing this stupid scholarship through my dads work iim a spoiled brat who thinks i have everything comming to me, and i need to get a grip and realize there are people out there who dont live like we do.
um no shit. i dont know where she gets off saying shit like that to me. do i not do a lot of community service...and i enjoy it. i do it because i know there are people out there less fortunate than me and i enjoy giving back. WTF..she knows this. i already fucking asked for my transcripts and teacher recs. i havent gotten them back yet...but i got started on that at least 2/3 weeeks ago. It just pisses me off..and know this scholarsship is a lot of money, and she thinks im blowing it off. im really not, ive just been busy and dont always remember about it.
and then she automattically tells me what im selfish or that i always think only about me and never about others in the world. right. ok. i know thats not true. she can be so hurtful sometimes in the things she says.
and then she blames it on me having a boyfriend...my grades havent fallen, im still in bbyo, im still going to temple...i dont really know how being happy is a bad thing. but whatever. shes just..makes me so angry.
i really just want all this fighitng to stop its been goign on for like...a few months now, and things havent been gettign better. i dont know what else to do. so she might not like ALLLL of my decisions. but yes. i am 18 and i am living MY life how I want to live it. im safe, im careful, i do my work....theres nothing she has to worry about. yet shes on me all the time like iim freaking 5. you tell me i need to start doign mroe things on my own, and acting my age. then fuckign give me the room to do so.