I'm alive!
My laptop died, and my life has been chaotic, preventing me from doing much in the way of updating for the past stretch of time, but I'm back. Today has been a good day for the most part. It's my 2nd day off in a row, then I just have a couple of floor shifts then the weekend off, which makes me happy. My shifts haven't been too bad lately, which usually means hell is on the horizon, but maybe not.
I finally went to the doctor today to address some health concerns, and came away feeling pretty good about things. I am waiting for labs to come back regarding my blood sugar, but I am expecting to get a diabetes diagnosis. Not the best news, but my doctor doesn't seem to think that it will be too bad and depending on the results of my blood sugar and HgA1c, will decide what to do in terms of meds. I have lost almost 30 pounds, which he says will be a good thing in and of itself in terms of my glucose levels, and I need to keep it up. I am also feeling a bit more energetic now that I'm a bit lighter, which should make exercising easier for me.
I used to take antidepressant/antianxiety meds, but stopped taking them when the depression went away. Depression is pretty much gone, but my old friend anxiety is back. I know this because my heart runs fast and my BP trends high (at work mostly) and I feel tense and nervous all the time (especially at work...this new nurse gig is a bitch, let me tell ya). I wake up frequently at night, and it's just a mess. My BP and heart rate were normal at the doctors office, so it's not a chronic condition. I hadn't had any caffeine either. I started a new med that is still an SSRI/antidepressant, but is geared more towards anxiety and has fewer side effects than the one I was on. The tiredness and the nausea are not as much of a problem. In fact the doctor said that the med often peps people up, which I could definitely use. So I am on my way to managing some of these health issues that have been cropping up and scaring me a bit. Even knowing that I might be diabetic, I feel better now that I'm taking steps to control and reverse it. It may explain a lot of my lack of energy and such, and once I feel tip top again, I can only imagine the rest will follow. They are also testing my thyroid function since I've lost so much weight. I should probably keep better track of all this crap.
All in all though, I'm feeling pretty positive about things in general. I bought some hair dye, and I need to deal with that, and just start taking care of myself. I can do this now, so much better than before because I'm basically in work and home life mode. No more school for the time being (gotta pay down these student loans a bit before I borrow more :p ). Time to work and save back for the child's college fund (she's a freshman in high school... I guess it's time to think about that lol) and enjoy the fruits of my labor. Do some travelling as time permits, for now that's going to be places that are within a 2 -3 hour drive/flight/boat ride from here. First up, Las Vegas at the end of October. A long weekend and meeting my sis and her husband there to finally get to scope the scene out. Next to San Fran, this is the local trip I've waited the longest for. I better keep on this weight loss and endurance thing to be ready for the Strip!
I finally went to the doctor today to address some health concerns, and came away feeling pretty good about things. I am waiting for labs to come back regarding my blood sugar, but I am expecting to get a diabetes diagnosis. Not the best news, but my doctor doesn't seem to think that it will be too bad and depending on the results of my blood sugar and HgA1c, will decide what to do in terms of meds. I have lost almost 30 pounds, which he says will be a good thing in and of itself in terms of my glucose levels, and I need to keep it up. I am also feeling a bit more energetic now that I'm a bit lighter, which should make exercising easier for me.
I used to take antidepressant/antianxiety meds, but stopped taking them when the depression went away. Depression is pretty much gone, but my old friend anxiety is back. I know this because my heart runs fast and my BP trends high (at work mostly) and I feel tense and nervous all the time (especially at work...this new nurse gig is a bitch, let me tell ya). I wake up frequently at night, and it's just a mess. My BP and heart rate were normal at the doctors office, so it's not a chronic condition. I hadn't had any caffeine either. I started a new med that is still an SSRI/antidepressant, but is geared more towards anxiety and has fewer side effects than the one I was on. The tiredness and the nausea are not as much of a problem. In fact the doctor said that the med often peps people up, which I could definitely use. So I am on my way to managing some of these health issues that have been cropping up and scaring me a bit. Even knowing that I might be diabetic, I feel better now that I'm taking steps to control and reverse it. It may explain a lot of my lack of energy and such, and once I feel tip top again, I can only imagine the rest will follow. They are also testing my thyroid function since I've lost so much weight. I should probably keep better track of all this crap.
All in all though, I'm feeling pretty positive about things in general. I bought some hair dye, and I need to deal with that, and just start taking care of myself. I can do this now, so much better than before because I'm basically in work and home life mode. No more school for the time being (gotta pay down these student loans a bit before I borrow more :p ). Time to work and save back for the child's college fund (she's a freshman in high school... I guess it's time to think about that lol) and enjoy the fruits of my labor. Do some travelling as time permits, for now that's going to be places that are within a 2 -3 hour drive/flight/boat ride from here. First up, Las Vegas at the end of October. A long weekend and meeting my sis and her husband there to finally get to scope the scene out. Next to San Fran, this is the local trip I've waited the longest for. I better keep on this weight loss and endurance thing to be ready for the Strip!