This will be an actual journal entry type thing.
August 24/05
Dear Journal,
I'm pretty sure Rachel hates me, seeing as she fingered me, right after she called me a b!tc#. The half strange half happy thing is though that i really don't care, i feel bad that i don't, but i don't feel bad about her hating me. I'm ashamed that i kept her as a friend for so long when it went against so many of my values. I think friends should care about eachother enough to respect what the other believes in. I cared enough about Rachel to worry about her getting into drugs and smoking. Now I just feel betrayed and i really don't care anymore if she wants to screw her life away and become like her mother who doesn't have enough to buy her children clothes, but does have enough to buy all her smokes and stupid cats. I realize this is pretty harsh, but it has to be said that i feel very alone and i just wish for once that i could find better friends. I'm sure that I will have better judgement in the future.
Whew! That being said, I'm having a lot of fun hanging out with Sarah lately and I really like where I'm working. I'm going to miss Sarah soooooo much when she goes away to boarding school, she's my greatest friend in all the world! I'm making her something really special and I hope she likes it. It took a lot of work. I'm having Sarah and her mother and her grandmother for dinner this Sunday and I'm really excited because I think it's going to be a great evening. I really want Susan to learn to like my family and my home.
Evan's gone at camp so I haven't even had one single date since I turned sixteen. It's rather depressing really. Do any guys just want to go out and have fun and not worry about being a couple? I just want to do things as friends and not have to worry about what people will think. Anyway I hope Evan gets back soon.
School starts soon and I can hardly wait. I'm really eager to prove myself this year and I think I can do well. I got 85% and 98% on my two courses that I took over the summer. I'm really proud of myself because I feel like I worked hard and did well. Or.... maybe the online teachers just thought I was asian because of my last name and gave me extra marks. hopefully not. jk. Anyway life is pretty good and now I got to go to bed. goodnight.
christy j. lee
Dear Journal,
I'm pretty sure Rachel hates me, seeing as she fingered me, right after she called me a b!tc#. The half strange half happy thing is though that i really don't care, i feel bad that i don't, but i don't feel bad about her hating me. I'm ashamed that i kept her as a friend for so long when it went against so many of my values. I think friends should care about eachother enough to respect what the other believes in. I cared enough about Rachel to worry about her getting into drugs and smoking. Now I just feel betrayed and i really don't care anymore if she wants to screw her life away and become like her mother who doesn't have enough to buy her children clothes, but does have enough to buy all her smokes and stupid cats. I realize this is pretty harsh, but it has to be said that i feel very alone and i just wish for once that i could find better friends. I'm sure that I will have better judgement in the future.
Whew! That being said, I'm having a lot of fun hanging out with Sarah lately and I really like where I'm working. I'm going to miss Sarah soooooo much when she goes away to boarding school, she's my greatest friend in all the world! I'm making her something really special and I hope she likes it. It took a lot of work. I'm having Sarah and her mother and her grandmother for dinner this Sunday and I'm really excited because I think it's going to be a great evening. I really want Susan to learn to like my family and my home.
Evan's gone at camp so I haven't even had one single date since I turned sixteen. It's rather depressing really. Do any guys just want to go out and have fun and not worry about being a couple? I just want to do things as friends and not have to worry about what people will think. Anyway I hope Evan gets back soon.
School starts soon and I can hardly wait. I'm really eager to prove myself this year and I think I can do well. I got 85% and 98% on my two courses that I took over the summer. I'm really proud of myself because I feel like I worked hard and did well. Or.... maybe the online teachers just thought I was asian because of my last name and gave me extra marks. hopefully not. jk. Anyway life is pretty good and now I got to go to bed. goodnight.
christy j. lee