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[daisyclover]

I broke up with lee on sunday. It's over, for good, never going back. I've had enough. I am moving out this week. Everything is gone except my dresser and some boxes. I don't know what to feel or think. I am blindly going and i feel empty, sad, lost, angry, happy, free and liberated all at once. Two years of being together and this is how it ends

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[sophistikid]

i haven't been on LJ in days. Are you alright?

[daisyclover]

I'm ok. I have so much shit in my head. I failed my math class, well I got a high d...almost a c. I'm totally fucked and can't go to chico in the fall like I have been planning. I dunno. I am surfing the web looking for answers if I can somehow by-pass this shit. I dunno. I feel horrible now, as I just found out my misfortune. I feel like a dumb idiot and I should just say fuck it cause I'll probably never get to college now. I'm pooh. The lee thing is just wierd. I moved home to my parents...yuck. but now that I probably won't be leaving in couple months I think I might look for a place. Lee wants me to come home. We have been talking and remaining friends, I love him and miss him, I just am hella confused. Yeah. Sorry to like flip out on you. But yeah. Any suggestions on the math stuff?? I hope you are doing good. Call me if youhave a free day. I miss you.

[sophistikid]

Dahling, I am free on Fridays, but if I need to switch around some things throughout the week to see you then I shall, I shall.

As for the math thing, register for a summer equivalent at like, DVC or something and do it right now right now. If you pass it before registration at Chico, then you should be okay.

I'm glad you and Lee are still friends but be careful there... like you said, you knew how it really was for a long time, and you just needed to do something about it on your own time. I'm really proud of you for not only doing something about it, but having the sense to pace yourself. If another big decision concerning him needs to happen, pace yourself again, yeah?

I miss you too dearest and btw, you can

[sophistikid]

ack, i got cut off, lol. I was saying: you can ALWAYS flip out on me =)

[daisyclover]

thanks. I miss you. I decided to stick it out here for another 6 mos. retake algebra in the summer and do the next one in the fall. how are you?? I saw mele like two weeks ago. you and I need to get together soon.