This is what it sounds like when doves cry
Loving when there's nothing to love and no-one to love you in return. ::KKKKAHH::
Crying to sleep in anger at you and myself for staying ::KAAAH::
Having lost everyone and everything to be in this insipid affair of ours ::KKAAHH::
Feeling hopeless, alone and frozen :: KAAAHHHH:
Fucking Doves. They're supposed to be a symbol of peace, love and beauty. When we hear them cry, maybe that should be our warning that all the shit is about to hit the fan and we had better vacate the relationship before it is WE who are crying our own broken hearts to sleep and broken dreams away with doubt and insufficiency. My heart cries for someone. It seems to always be crying for someone.....for one person or another to wake up and love it, love me. What is wrong with me? I know now I deserve the love I've been searching for and have no fault in searching and desiring that. "SO, Why am I still here?" I keep asking myself this same question time and time again- in tears and shear sarcastic disbelief that after all the things that have been done, I am back here, yet again....just waiting with open heart and I don't know what for him to kill my heart. I blame myself ( which only seems to exascerbate the problem) for having had ample oppertunity to run away and never be hurt by you or ones like you again....YOU, the faceless, nameless YOU forever interchangeable and ME forever doomed to face the YOUS until every bit of me is used up, changed, disenchanted, sacrificed and dead, cold, bitter, blind. I believe this is what they call an epiphany....so much for that. I am particularly ambivilant about it at this moment. There's nothing that can be done....well, that's not true. There is, but that will take much more than ambivilance....it will take strength, resolve, and BALLS.
Crying to sleep in anger at you and myself for staying ::KAAAH::
Having lost everyone and everything to be in this insipid affair of ours ::KKAAHH::
Feeling hopeless, alone and frozen :: KAAAHHHH:
Fucking Doves. They're supposed to be a symbol of peace, love and beauty. When we hear them cry, maybe that should be our warning that all the shit is about to hit the fan and we had better vacate the relationship before it is WE who are crying our own broken hearts to sleep and broken dreams away with doubt and insufficiency. My heart cries for someone. It seems to always be crying for someone.....for one person or another to wake up and love it, love me. What is wrong with me? I know now I deserve the love I've been searching for and have no fault in searching and desiring that. "SO, Why am I still here?" I keep asking myself this same question time and time again- in tears and shear sarcastic disbelief that after all the things that have been done, I am back here, yet again....just waiting with open heart and I don't know what for him to kill my heart. I blame myself ( which only seems to exascerbate the problem) for having had ample oppertunity to run away and never be hurt by you or ones like you again....YOU, the faceless, nameless YOU forever interchangeable and ME forever doomed to face the YOUS until every bit of me is used up, changed, disenchanted, sacrificed and dead, cold, bitter, blind. I believe this is what they call an epiphany....so much for that. I am particularly ambivilant about it at this moment. There's nothing that can be done....well, that's not true. There is, but that will take much more than ambivilance....it will take strength, resolve, and BALLS.