droppin it like it's hot

[daisyclover]

shit. I am hungover like a mofo. I have a debate I still have to prepare for like now and do in a couple hours. Why did halloween have to be on a sunday and why do I have class the next day. HOLY SHIT, I was nautina last night...I was janet from rocky horror and I was like so gone I was freak dancing with everyone all nite long. I gav Jamie a lap

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[daisyclover]

cocko #2 is henry and I was referring to costume katie. I wasn't mad or anything, if she wanted to be down with him that's fine...although I don't think she is. But yeah, I was just pissed. there was some shit that went down between he and I and there was never any real closure. He just stopped calling and coming around. The reason why I got pissed was I felt it was disrespectful to come up and hit on my friends when I'm right there after the fact that the last time we had hung out before that was the night we slept together and it was very much for me to do, because I cared a great deal for him and after that night , he pretty much stopped coming around and calling and i felt like a whore or something, like where's the fucking money on the night table and shit. It was bad and then even though I am with someone else, it still hurt to see him like that and my heart still leapt in a melancholy way when we spoke. I love him in some sad way still, although I am so angry with him and myself that it is just a large dollop of pooh. We don't even talk anymore really. I feel bitter about it so much that I feel I am deluded because I think he just got what he wanted and when he ws done, that was it. But yeah. I am doing fine other than the residual pooh from him still...grrr. I am busy as all hell with school and Shadowbox is going really well. R&J is finally over...a little bittersweet and just tryin to stay on top of things....not doing too well. WOrking too now again at the body shop....desperate times called for desperate measures. heh. and the whole thing with lee is goin ok. I am tired of men and dating. I wonder when I am ever gonna be in a situation where I won't hear these fatal words" I don't really want a girlfriend right now" it's like a pananma canal to avoiding responsibility and accountability for the things they say and do or mistakes they will undoubtly make with someone else...ooops, I fucked someone elese I'm sorry, but you're not my girlfriend. Sorry. I am bitter a bit this morning. Yes, I am very jaded about men and have a hard time trusting any one of them. but yeah. I'm probably better off, I usually drive them away before there's been much said to make me fall, only damage that is accumulative that can never be fixed to me, to my hard heart and body used to pay for some sense of love. But not to be too much of a downer, I have great friends and who needs the bullshit when I have kick ass friends...like you my dear. I miss you. I miss talkin shit about dumb people with you. how are you doing?

[fidele44]

Fuck him! Fuck him very much. Seriously, what an ass. I hate the kind of men who can play a real man on stage, but off they're just insecure cock suckers who don't know a real woman from their own asshole. So fuck him, you deserve better, and I know you know it. Poor Katie. Anywho, I'm okay. May or may not be diving into the unknown abyss of an actual relationship. But we've only been on one official date and I don't want to jinx it, so nevermind. School and work are as busy as sin and I just found out that I won't know if I can come home for Xmas until the week before, so that's a bit of a nail biter. But life is pretty fucking decent at the moment, and talking to you is always a major upper. I gotta go now. Miss you.

[daisyclover]

I'm glad to hear you're doing well. That makes me happee! : )Can I just say that I cannot wait for the semester be over! Wow. SO BUSY....it is a sin as you said. I don't mind Shadowbox making me busy, but english papers and history fucking midterms can lick my ass! heh. Yeah, hopefully you get to come home. It would be nice to hang out if possible. Me, you and Adric should get drunk and watch stupid dating shows and reality tv and talk shit to the people about how dumb they are. Taht would rule! ok, gotta jet off to the shower for school. miss you lots and beeee good and have fun ok?