I don't bring me anything but...down?
I've been off the Prozac for about a week now. Not intentionally, I just haven't had the money to refill my prescription. So, I haven't been able to take it.
I have a doctor's appointment today during which my doc will assess my use of the medication and whether or not it's working.
I don't think it is...or...was...
Two weeks ago, I distinctly felt like the dosage was ineffective. My symptoms of depression (sounds so serious, I know) were still very evident, if not amplified. Tears, frustration, short temper, anxiety, insomnia, impatience, disdain, dismay, overwhelm...Felt surely that if I didn't get the medication straight, I was going to spiral back down into nothingness.
Then--I ran out.
Nothing I could do about it, really. Just ran out. They don't make samples of Prozac anymore...so, no calling the doc for a goody-bag to tide me over.
I'd always heard that it was difficult to get off Prozac because of the side-effects of stopping the medication. But honestly? I've been so busy in the last 10 days that I haven't hardly even noticed the missing meds. As a matter of fact, I've felt pretty good--emotionally, anyway--in the last several days.
So, now I'm wondering if I was relying to heavily on the implications of being medicated? Or if the drugs were really doing their job, just not as effectively as they were supposed to, and *that* is what made me hyper-aware of the short-fall?
I don't know. I guess I should talk to my doctor about all of this stuff...just trying to get my head clear on it before I go in to see her because I always get really nervous at my appointments. Like she's going to think I'm faking it or something...
Paranoia.
Isn't that another sign of depression?
I have a doctor's appointment today during which my doc will assess my use of the medication and whether or not it's working.
I don't think it is...or...was...
Two weeks ago, I distinctly felt like the dosage was ineffective. My symptoms of depression (sounds so serious, I know) were still very evident, if not amplified. Tears, frustration, short temper, anxiety, insomnia, impatience, disdain, dismay, overwhelm...Felt surely that if I didn't get the medication straight, I was going to spiral back down into nothingness.
Then--I ran out.
Nothing I could do about it, really. Just ran out. They don't make samples of Prozac anymore...so, no calling the doc for a goody-bag to tide me over.
I'd always heard that it was difficult to get off Prozac because of the side-effects of stopping the medication. But honestly? I've been so busy in the last 10 days that I haven't hardly even noticed the missing meds. As a matter of fact, I've felt pretty good--emotionally, anyway--in the last several days.
So, now I'm wondering if I was relying to heavily on the implications of being medicated? Or if the drugs were really doing their job, just not as effectively as they were supposed to, and *that* is what made me hyper-aware of the short-fall?
I don't know. I guess I should talk to my doctor about all of this stuff...just trying to get my head clear on it before I go in to see her because I always get really nervous at my appointments. Like she's going to think I'm faking it or something...
Paranoia.
Isn't that another sign of depression?