summer days
okay, for the record, i'm updating this only because i might want to read it later. i say thta because i just read all of my previous entries, and it was enjoyable. i laughed and cried and thought a lot about my life in the past year. it's funny how i judge my year from 'poco to poco.' whatever happened in between poco 2004 and poco 2005. and 2005 to 2006. from 2003-2004 was hard. really hard. a lot of family stuggles. outward stuff. stuff everyone knew was going on. 2004-2005 was good. must've been really good, because i can't remember any bad things happening besides separating my shoulder. 2005-2006 has been interesting. A LOT of inward struggles. things no one could help me with. there have been so many ups and downs with my family and friendships and relationships and youth group and acteens and school and everything. and everything has turned out pretty okay. not perfect. and not exactly the way i wanted them to. but, God knows what he's doing. for example, Kendra and I - totally best friends. closer then we ever were in elementary school, thanks to the fact that we're older and have a bit more freedom. (just a bit.) and because of Richard, Kendra and I have gotten so close to all of his close friends. the downside of that is that they all graduated and next year we're going to be lost..haha. we'll also drive everyone up a wall.
anywho. the SBC was mon-tues-wed. I worked at the Children's Conference and it was so great. it seriously wore me out. on tues, i went out to the staff van and took a 45 minute nap while someone covered my station. but, it is such a blessing to work with those kids. for years and years people took care of me while my parents were in the convention meetings. and it's my time to give back. God is good.
i think i'm going to winston w/vanessa on saturday, that'll be fun. hopefully linz and cait are going too. and i hope i can see kendra today. then my family's leaving on mon to go see family in arkansas and lousiana. it's gonna be...different. i'm not gonna go into it. when i get back, i should get to see that boyfriend of mine. we're going to be apart for 16 days straight. no seeing each other, and very very very little talking to each other. the longest we've ever been apart is 3 days, and even then we got to talk at night. it was supposed to be 17 days, but he ended up getting to come see me on Sunday night because he wouldn't shut up and his dad said "son, you're being a pest." and finally said he could come over for an hour. haha. he's the best. and his family is the best. i went to his house saturday night for a graduation cook out with his family. mom, dad, sisters, brother, grandparents on both sides, aunts, uncles - it was so great! they are all so sweet and funny and nice.
enough about that though. the point of this really was that everything changes. but, it's okay. there's a song that i recently opened up to. i've known the song for a long time, but enver really let the lyrics touch me.
"i'm safe, safe 'cause You love me
safe, safe all because Your name
has power to calm the oceans
when e v e r y t h i n g changes
i'm safe
i'm safe"
~ZOEgirl
so, next year will probably be my last year at Poco. and I can only imagine how 2006-2007 is going to look through my eyes. it's going to be fun. crazy. scary. sad. hard. exciting. strange. all of the above. but i'll be safe.
anywho. the SBC was mon-tues-wed. I worked at the Children's Conference and it was so great. it seriously wore me out. on tues, i went out to the staff van and took a 45 minute nap while someone covered my station. but, it is such a blessing to work with those kids. for years and years people took care of me while my parents were in the convention meetings. and it's my time to give back. God is good.
i think i'm going to winston w/vanessa on saturday, that'll be fun. hopefully linz and cait are going too. and i hope i can see kendra today. then my family's leaving on mon to go see family in arkansas and lousiana. it's gonna be...different. i'm not gonna go into it. when i get back, i should get to see that boyfriend of mine. we're going to be apart for 16 days straight. no seeing each other, and very very very little talking to each other. the longest we've ever been apart is 3 days, and even then we got to talk at night. it was supposed to be 17 days, but he ended up getting to come see me on Sunday night because he wouldn't shut up and his dad said "son, you're being a pest." and finally said he could come over for an hour. haha. he's the best. and his family is the best. i went to his house saturday night for a graduation cook out with his family. mom, dad, sisters, brother, grandparents on both sides, aunts, uncles - it was so great! they are all so sweet and funny and nice.
enough about that though. the point of this really was that everything changes. but, it's okay. there's a song that i recently opened up to. i've known the song for a long time, but enver really let the lyrics touch me.
"i'm safe, safe 'cause You love me
safe, safe all because Your name
has power to calm the oceans
when e v e r y t h i n g changes
i'm safe
i'm safe"
~ZOEgirl
so, next year will probably be my last year at Poco. and I can only imagine how 2006-2007 is going to look through my eyes. it's going to be fun. crazy. scary. sad. hard. exciting. strange. all of the above. but i'll be safe.