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I didn't sleep until really late last night. Was waiting for a text, and got to sleep around 2 or 3. I'm trying to write lots and lots, and to go over it and edit it properly. Going to have a shower, go for lunch and then wander with my mother. I get so moody and paranoid at certain times of the month, as you may or may not have noticed. Ugh. It's horrible. I really need to control it. Might go to the gym for a while, I haven't been in about a week and a half, two weeks. I know when I get home there will be so much to sort out. College, we are meant to be getting the house done up sometime soon, so mum wants to come out to Spain alone. I think I'd die of worry if she does. And I'd be left alone to make sure dad wasn't cutting any corners. It's not as big a job as it seems. More for practicality's sake. Double glazing, insulation everywhere, solar panels hopefully. As it is it's a beautiful house, but it is falling apart. Literally. I don't know what I'm going to do when I'm alone. When my parents aren't here anymore. I can't even think about it. I can take care of myself, thats not a problem, but how on earth will I cope? Same as everyone else I suppose. Doesn't make the prospect any easier to face though. I'm hungry. I'm gonig to shower and dress and go for food.