[The recording is silent for a few seconds until Hakkai sighs]
It has been four and a half years since... It happened.
[Hakkai laughs dryly, sounding more sad than happy]
It seems so much longer than that.
Until now, I still can't seem to move on. Every time I see my hands, the images of my past still flicker on... That fateful day... The loud drumming in my ears... When you took that knife and -
[A gasp interrupts Hakkai, and it took him a few more breaths to continue on]
At that moment, I swore never to hug anyone with this bloodstained hands... Or to love anyone else, in fear of losing them again...
But... I still want to live. I'm sorry, but I want to use what's left of my time for myself. It sounds selfish, I know, but please... Please understand. Soon, I'll join you, and we can be happy again. Just wait a little while longer.
I love you, Kannan... My Kannan.