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Wow, I didn't realize how long it has been since I updated this stupid thing. -raises eyebrow- It was kind of funny to look on my old journal entries and see "Jerard and I are still together".
To those who are not aware, yes Jerard and I have broken up.. it's been quite a while now. And honestly, it was the best decision I could have made. Jerard and I, while our relationship was going on (at first) was amazing. He was a great guy... sort of. However, towards the end.. yeah. He couldn't accept two things about me that were most important to me. So, I left him.
However, I do have a new guy, and already he blows Jerard out of the fucking water. He's sweet, he's kind, he's a gentleman, he accepts everything about me (and he's hot, but that's a story for a different time), and he actually wants to make something of himself. His name, ironically enough, is Kevin.
Speaking of a kevin, I still haven't heard from Aimee. It's been.. forever now. But! One thing is true atleast here I can say what I wish and not have to worry about her, or any of her connections for that matter, reading it. Who, honestly, pays attention to livejournal now? Honestly. But yes, for a while I thought perhaps our friendship was about to come back but... yeah. So far, nothing. I have mixed emotions about the entire thing. Should I rub it in her face that I was right, and she was wrong? No because that is not the ethical friend thing to do. Should I embrace her with open arms, hug her and tell her everything will be ok? No, because she hurt me. She turned her back on me for a guy. But, I don't want to hold it against her... UGH even typing it down I get confused. I don't want to type something that will make me sound like a bitch (though, I think I'm successfully making myself sound like such -shrugs-) and I don't want to sound like the easy push-over. -sigh- So confused T.T
ON THE BRIGHT SIDE AND A MUCH HAPPIER NOTE! Kevin is now living with me. It's rather strange, to say the least, waking up in the morning and finding a strange (and sexy) man on my couch. Then I realize how much I look like shit and hide in the bathroom. LUCKY FOR ME! He isn't very coherent when he wakes up. WOO! Maybe he won't remember my creature from the deep look -shifty eyes-
Anyway, I suppose I should go now.. because... my brain.. hurts.......and I like dots... oh no, here we go again.
BYE!
To those who are not aware, yes Jerard and I have broken up.. it's been quite a while now. And honestly, it was the best decision I could have made. Jerard and I, while our relationship was going on (at first) was amazing. He was a great guy... sort of. However, towards the end.. yeah. He couldn't accept two things about me that were most important to me. So, I left him.
However, I do have a new guy, and already he blows Jerard out of the fucking water. He's sweet, he's kind, he's a gentleman, he accepts everything about me (and he's hot, but that's a story for a different time), and he actually wants to make something of himself. His name, ironically enough, is Kevin.
Speaking of a kevin, I still haven't heard from Aimee. It's been.. forever now. But! One thing is true atleast here I can say what I wish and not have to worry about her, or any of her connections for that matter, reading it. Who, honestly, pays attention to livejournal now? Honestly. But yes, for a while I thought perhaps our friendship was about to come back but... yeah. So far, nothing. I have mixed emotions about the entire thing. Should I rub it in her face that I was right, and she was wrong? No because that is not the ethical friend thing to do. Should I embrace her with open arms, hug her and tell her everything will be ok? No, because she hurt me. She turned her back on me for a guy. But, I don't want to hold it against her... UGH even typing it down I get confused. I don't want to type something that will make me sound like a bitch (though, I think I'm successfully making myself sound like such -shrugs-) and I don't want to sound like the easy push-over. -sigh- So confused T.T
ON THE BRIGHT SIDE AND A MUCH HAPPIER NOTE! Kevin is now living with me. It's rather strange, to say the least, waking up in the morning and finding a strange (and sexy) man on my couch. Then I realize how much I look like shit and hide in the bathroom. LUCKY FOR ME! He isn't very coherent when he wakes up. WOO! Maybe he won't remember my creature from the deep look -shifty eyes-
Anyway, I suppose I should go now.. because... my brain.. hurts.......and I like dots... oh no, here we go again.
BYE!