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[daisan]

Dannus is away this weekend at the Indiana game. I had no desire to sit outside in the cold for 4 hours, so he went with his friend Greg from high school. Part of me is super geeked to watch LOST every night (Gimmie an L...L! gimmie an O...O! gimmie an S...S!! gimmie a T...T!!! What's that spell? Jack!) but most of me is lonely without my Dannus. I have issues when he's not around. I can't fall asleep: the bed's too big and cold. And I'm nervous in the house. It's so illogical. I mean, someone would literally have had to been watching our house since 7 pm to know that Dan's not here tonight. His being gone does not increase the chance that we're going to be robbed or that one of our appliances is going to burst into flames. Still, when he's here I don't even give this stuff a second thought. Dan's the one who bolts the front door and everything. But when he's gone I start hearing things, and I sit there and wonder what I'd do if someone tried to come through the window. And the baby...aiy, the baby. I hope to God he sleeps through the night. He went down for me okay, which was a pleasant surprise, but he tends to wake up at 2 am on nights that I put him to bed wailing "Mommmyyy??" and then refuse to go back down. Ugh. Please, you darn baby, sleep through the night! It's ridiculous; it's only when I put him to sleep. Every night Dan does it in about two minutes and Kaden doesn't stir 'till 8 am. Buh.

So I got to play "single mom" tonight, and pretend to be all responsible. I picked up the Doob's toys, did a load of laundry and made soup stock. Doob sat in his high chair turning the pages while I read "The Fat Cat." Then I put him to bed and cleaned the kitchen. I think I can reward myself with some Sawyer...I mean, LOST.

:)