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so, i was happy for awhile. but i'm definitely not anymore.
i don't love dance anymore, which is weird.
i've been doing it for so long, that i think i might be taking it for granted...but at the same time, i dread classes. i dread my solo. i dread conventions and competitions; those aren't characteristics of a dancer who loves what she does.
i don't have a boyfriend. I'm not sure if that's a good or bad thing. i'm not as upset as often as i am when i have a boyfriend. there's a lot less drama without one. but, random hookups aren't nearly as cool to me. i've experienced them, but they just..aren't that cool. and they're never that good either. I'm too picky, and i know that. but there's no point in me having a boyfriend or dating boys that i don't like just for the hell of it. it's weird but true that the less you date, the less enemies you have.
talia's moving on monday. it's always seemed really far away. it's always been a few months away..then a few weeks. but it's never been a few days away, and now it is. tomorrow's the last day i see her for 8 months. It's gonna be ridiculously hard mainly because she'll be in a foreign country. that completely elliminates phone access. so, we'll be limited to computers for 8 months which will be pretty hard to keep in touch with. i'm gonna miss her a lot. but she'll be back.
I'm sure everything will work itself out. I'm sure i'll figure out what i want to do with dance, and i'm sure at some point i will have a passion. i'm sure that i'll find someone who i like sooner or later. and talia will be back, and she wont change..i know she won't.
only time will tell.
i don't love dance anymore, which is weird.
i've been doing it for so long, that i think i might be taking it for granted...but at the same time, i dread classes. i dread my solo. i dread conventions and competitions; those aren't characteristics of a dancer who loves what she does.
i don't have a boyfriend. I'm not sure if that's a good or bad thing. i'm not as upset as often as i am when i have a boyfriend. there's a lot less drama without one. but, random hookups aren't nearly as cool to me. i've experienced them, but they just..aren't that cool. and they're never that good either. I'm too picky, and i know that. but there's no point in me having a boyfriend or dating boys that i don't like just for the hell of it. it's weird but true that the less you date, the less enemies you have.
talia's moving on monday. it's always seemed really far away. it's always been a few months away..then a few weeks. but it's never been a few days away, and now it is. tomorrow's the last day i see her for 8 months. It's gonna be ridiculously hard mainly because she'll be in a foreign country. that completely elliminates phone access. so, we'll be limited to computers for 8 months which will be pretty hard to keep in touch with. i'm gonna miss her a lot. but she'll be back.
I'm sure everything will work itself out. I'm sure i'll figure out what i want to do with dance, and i'm sure at some point i will have a passion. i'm sure that i'll find someone who i like sooner or later. and talia will be back, and she wont change..i know she won't.
only time will tell.