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just have to do some "venting". there are some things that i just have to get out of my heart and head. i will not allow comments as this is not for the purpose of pity and no one can make this different. this is what i feel, see......
hurt my back-out of chores for over a week-now mom in law acts as if i have nothing interesting to say--i am so sick of the eye rolling, the faces of disgust, she is not God, she is not perfect, but YOU must conform to her way of square thinking or you are stupid! GGRRRR we are very close. dont get me wrong. i love her dearly, but i dont know what her problem is.
i dont know what is up with hubby. since i found out my back is totally screwed, i feel like i am nothing around here. like he found out i am not the perfect woman he thought he married. yeah! he knew that! but he barely talks to me, no hugging, no kissing, no touching AT ALL. we go to bed, he faces his wall. i am losing my mind. its probably just me. as usual. i just want to matter, to be so important to him. he is not a bad guy at all. self centered--maybe, but he gets that from his mom. i seriously think that if i were to die today, life would go on tomorrow with him. i would be missed as far as the house and kids go. but his mom would take over with that....i am so replaceable and i cant stand it! what about me? i am an emotion garbage pit. our relationship started out as the best of friends....it was awesome! then, we got married. i swear the day that ring hit my finger--it all changed.
ok. i cant do this anymore.
hurt my back-out of chores for over a week-now mom in law acts as if i have nothing interesting to say--i am so sick of the eye rolling, the faces of disgust, she is not God, she is not perfect, but YOU must conform to her way of square thinking or you are stupid! GGRRRR we are very close. dont get me wrong. i love her dearly, but i dont know what her problem is.
i dont know what is up with hubby. since i found out my back is totally screwed, i feel like i am nothing around here. like he found out i am not the perfect woman he thought he married. yeah! he knew that! but he barely talks to me, no hugging, no kissing, no touching AT ALL. we go to bed, he faces his wall. i am losing my mind. its probably just me. as usual. i just want to matter, to be so important to him. he is not a bad guy at all. self centered--maybe, but he gets that from his mom. i seriously think that if i were to die today, life would go on tomorrow with him. i would be missed as far as the house and kids go. but his mom would take over with that....i am so replaceable and i cant stand it! what about me? i am an emotion garbage pit. our relationship started out as the best of friends....it was awesome! then, we got married. i swear the day that ring hit my finger--it all changed.
ok. i cant do this anymore.