Talk
Gazetto's Distress and Coma sways my heart once more!! What does Reita do to be so hot!? XD And Ruki looks really nice with red (as always), and the gloves, too! Is it only me thinking that Ruki's bit skinnier? 'Cause I can see his cheekbones in the lastest Fool's Mate. I like the girl as well... the dancing is indeed.. attractive to me, hmm. I really like the PV in general. Plus I love the title of the song the first time I heard it anyway X3 I keep on listening to it today, I need more Gazetto! And oh, I do miss L'Arc a lot, but Haido makes I lose my concentration, so.
Anyway, my guardian came to visit this morning, telling me that my 'problem' is that I really need to understand 'Endlish' itself very clearly, both the meaning and the sense of it. And the way to do that is try to not read in Thai, and talk to people who speak English as their first language more. And try to live with English more in many aspects of my life. Please don't get my guardian wrong, she says that the most important thing is that I need to spend time with the people I feel comfortable with, however she thinks that it'd be a good idea if I talk to someone who speaks proper English, that's all.
I... might try to read in Thai less, maybe. But I can't stop reading XS fanfictions I'm addicted to right now, though. At least she hasn't say anything about writing in Thai, thank God. <.<; I won't be able to cope without writing something. Although I keep writing crap that I don't even plan to post it anywhere these days, I know I do need to write for the sake of expressing whatever something out; chaining the words together and twist feelings around, so those feelings can turn to some kind of abstract painting.
Gah, sounds so obsessed, sorry.
However I'm gonna try to cheer myself up, 'cause Joy asked me today about how I 'look a bit sad', but I just only said that I was worried about my friend, which is not totally a lie because she's not the only friend who's started to notice something. And I was worried because I don't want people to think too much of me, because I know I will be okay. I will. There's nothing really wrong, just the matter of me feeling insecure. I don't know why I even let myself look sad, I shouldn't be that obvious.
Anyway, my guardian came to visit this morning, telling me that my 'problem' is that I really need to understand 'Endlish' itself very clearly, both the meaning and the sense of it. And the way to do that is try to not read in Thai, and talk to people who speak English as their first language more. And try to live with English more in many aspects of my life. Please don't get my guardian wrong, she says that the most important thing is that I need to spend time with the people I feel comfortable with, however she thinks that it'd be a good idea if I talk to someone who speaks proper English, that's all.
I... might try to read in Thai less, maybe. But I can't stop reading XS fanfictions I'm addicted to right now, though. At least she hasn't say anything about writing in Thai, thank God. <.<; I won't be able to cope without writing something. Although I keep writing crap that I don't even plan to post it anywhere these days, I know I do need to write for the sake of expressing whatever something out; chaining the words together and twist feelings around, so those feelings can turn to some kind of abstract painting.
Gah, sounds so obsessed, sorry.
However I'm gonna try to cheer myself up, 'cause Joy asked me today about how I 'look a bit sad', but I just only said that I was worried about my friend, which is not totally a lie because she's not the only friend who's started to notice something. And I was worried because I don't want people to think too much of me, because I know I will be okay. I will. There's nothing really wrong, just the matter of me feeling insecure. I don't know why I even let myself look sad, I shouldn't be that obvious.