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i learnt a lesson yesterday. i dont know. i hate my home. i suck.
sometimes i dont feel like coming home.
even if i come home, either early or late, my mum will still nag, and then say i'm not a good daughter.
hey, at least i dont really go out on saturdays. fuck man.
at least i know what im doing. exams are over. what do u want from me.
and stupidly, i cried while sharin and all his friends ah pey and etc were there. fuck man.
at least i covered my face with my cardigan. i hope they dont know i was crying.
its so stressful. i never know life at home was this stressful.
because getting a A2 for a subject is not good enough. you expected distinction for all. like wtf?
im trying my best here. and there you are criticising about me to other family members that i'm stupid.
if i dont have the heart, i would willingly say to your face that you are a useless mother.
the fact that i hated home so much, was because, no matter how hard i try to be good,
its still not good. not good enough. but i least i took the initiative to try.
is it wrong?
and then when i return home late at night because it was just so stressful at home,
you will go nag nag nagging all the way. and who really likes to hear nagging everyday.
screwed up la.
today is a Saturday and i'm stupidly staying at home and waiting for Sharin's message since YESTERDAY.
sometimes i dont feel like coming home.
even if i come home, either early or late, my mum will still nag, and then say i'm not a good daughter.
hey, at least i dont really go out on saturdays. fuck man.
at least i know what im doing. exams are over. what do u want from me.
and stupidly, i cried while sharin and all his friends ah pey and etc were there. fuck man.
at least i covered my face with my cardigan. i hope they dont know i was crying.
its so stressful. i never know life at home was this stressful.
because getting a A2 for a subject is not good enough. you expected distinction for all. like wtf?
im trying my best here. and there you are criticising about me to other family members that i'm stupid.
if i dont have the heart, i would willingly say to your face that you are a useless mother.
the fact that i hated home so much, was because, no matter how hard i try to be good,
its still not good. not good enough. but i least i took the initiative to try.
is it wrong?
and then when i return home late at night because it was just so stressful at home,
you will go nag nag nagging all the way. and who really likes to hear nagging everyday.
screwed up la.
today is a Saturday and i'm stupidly staying at home and waiting for Sharin's message since YESTERDAY.