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For the past two months i have been someone i'm not. i'm trying so hard to get my life back on track. i understand the concequences i must deal with and i'm ready for them. i just hope i don't mess anything up anymore. i need to keep my distance from everyone for a while so i can get myself back on track. i'm not satisfied with myself at all. i'm trying so hard to get everything back. summer is almost here and i plan os spending a lot of it with a few people. atleast till everything is okay again. so much has changed with in the past year i'm becoming overwhelmed with it and i refuse to. i refuse to keep fighting myself and everyone else. i need to learn to who to trust. i trust people to easily. i need to learn who i can keep my walls up with and who i can't. school is done in a week and i have time to just work and relax and take life day by day. i'm trying to give myself space but i don't know how. i'm disgusted with myself...i'm trying to go back to me.