It's been a long time, I shouldn't have left you, with out a dose of Jow to step to....
Hello boys............(and girls).............I'm baaaaaaaaaa-ckkkkkkkkkkkk!
Wow, so, the last update was in November. It's now May of the next year. My bad. I've left people in suspense as to what happened to emo Jow and the love that he lost.
Well guess what? He won her back.
:-D
And for the first time in my life, I can honestly say, I'm happy. It worked out just like in the movies where the good guy got the girl he was after. I just hope my life doesn't switch gears into sequel mode and have shit hit the fan. So ok, me and Alijah are back together. I know what you're thinking;
"Wow, cuz we all didn't see that one coming. And in a couple weeks you'll break up again, and then a week later get back together again and so on and so forth..."
Ennnnnnngh. Wrong. Not this time. We haven't had a single fight since November. That must be some kind of a record Mr. Slinky. We're incredibly happy, and I enjoy appreciating her. I didn't before, but I've changed. People rarley change, and if they do, it's for the worse. I'm proud enough to say, I have. And it's payed off wonderfully.
Let's see what else has happened, I got re-hired by Alden HD to work for ESPN Classic. It's ok. Steady job with good pay, although I don't always get my checks on time, but I'm handling it like an adult and planning ahead. I'm currently saving up for my "big-time" camera so that I can get back to work on my own projects. I'm saving up for a Panasonic HVX200a. It's about a $2000 package and I have bills out the wazoo so it's taking me some time to get up the money right and a lot of sacrifices (less trips to Best Buy and not as much chinese food.) lol.
But this is a badass camera that will help me get some projects taken seriously. If you're curious about what it looks like, here's a example....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XRzyUmoQ19s
It ain't no 35mm, but for my current budget, it rocks.
As far as friends go, I've given up trying to play Superman and "save" people who don't want to be saved. I'm doing something I don't normally do, biting my tongue. I'm letting people do what they wanna do. Drinking, drugs, treating women.....well, just not how I treat alijah, or girls who are friends in general. We'll leave it like that. And when shit hits the fan for them, I won't shed a tear and I won't do a thing to stop it or help them unless they ask me to. It's a shame that it's come to that, but I've pretty much deducted that most of them wouldn't do the things for me that I would do for them. I'm not saying they're bad guys, far from it. Some of the best that I know. But in the end, I'm not like them. Is it the non-drinking, the chrisitan upbringing, the karate philosophy, the gullible belief of moral supremecy from buying into movie rhetoric? A combination of them all that leads the me holding impossible standards for people? Most likely. But I've set aside helping people blindly. As much as I want to help my friends, I can't. They don't trust me. And maybe it's because of their own egos, or maybe it's because of mine. Either way, I need to focus on myself right now. The stress of dealing with other people's problems would crush me. I have to take care of myself, my bills, my dreams, and my girl. That's all my priority right now. I love my guy friends, but there's bigger fish to fry. --- hopefully none of them take offense to this, it wasn't meant to be.
So while we're on the subject of fixing things, I'm doing what I can to better myself. I've been reading up a lot on Hwang Kee, the founder of Tang Soo Do, the style of martial arts that I practice. We don't really go that much into the history and philosophy of the style and in preparation of a possible Master Belt invitational letter that *may* come one day, I decided to explore. What I found rocked my world from all over. From belt colors, to philosophy on tournaments, personal challenges for someone to set for themselves. Everything has just changed my whole outlook on the style from now on. One of the biggest things I'm taking under my belt is the impossibility of perfection. And how not to judge others because you yourself have things to over come. Which explains not only the paragraph above, but my reluctance to participate in tournaments anymore. I'm focusing more on me and maybe through humble example I can inspire others to follow in their own personal journies, rather than set demands for them to meet in my own approval. It just seems to be a better aproach to helping people and relieving a load of stress from my own back. Problem with this is, America is the land of competition. Now I'm not knocking baseball, football or professional sports. But martial arts is supposed to be a way of life. Almost like a religion. And we all know what happens when religions enter into competition with one another.
What else what else.....oh, I gave up coca cola for 4 months. Yes, i made a new years resolution to give it up but have since relapsed. Now while people can say "i knew u were gonna" I give myself a lot of credit. How many people do you know keep a new years resolution for 4 days let alone 4 months?
Um, so what else, what else....
idk, I guess I'll update again when I think of something lol.
Wow, so, the last update was in November. It's now May of the next year. My bad. I've left people in suspense as to what happened to emo Jow and the love that he lost.
Well guess what? He won her back.
:-D
And for the first time in my life, I can honestly say, I'm happy. It worked out just like in the movies where the good guy got the girl he was after. I just hope my life doesn't switch gears into sequel mode and have shit hit the fan. So ok, me and Alijah are back together. I know what you're thinking;
"Wow, cuz we all didn't see that one coming. And in a couple weeks you'll break up again, and then a week later get back together again and so on and so forth..."
Ennnnnnngh. Wrong. Not this time. We haven't had a single fight since November. That must be some kind of a record Mr. Slinky. We're incredibly happy, and I enjoy appreciating her. I didn't before, but I've changed. People rarley change, and if they do, it's for the worse. I'm proud enough to say, I have. And it's payed off wonderfully.
Let's see what else has happened, I got re-hired by Alden HD to work for ESPN Classic. It's ok. Steady job with good pay, although I don't always get my checks on time, but I'm handling it like an adult and planning ahead. I'm currently saving up for my "big-time" camera so that I can get back to work on my own projects. I'm saving up for a Panasonic HVX200a. It's about a $2000 package and I have bills out the wazoo so it's taking me some time to get up the money right and a lot of sacrifices (less trips to Best Buy and not as much chinese food.) lol.
But this is a badass camera that will help me get some projects taken seriously. If you're curious about what it looks like, here's a example....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XRzyUmoQ19s
It ain't no 35mm, but for my current budget, it rocks.
As far as friends go, I've given up trying to play Superman and "save" people who don't want to be saved. I'm doing something I don't normally do, biting my tongue. I'm letting people do what they wanna do. Drinking, drugs, treating women.....well, just not how I treat alijah, or girls who are friends in general. We'll leave it like that. And when shit hits the fan for them, I won't shed a tear and I won't do a thing to stop it or help them unless they ask me to. It's a shame that it's come to that, but I've pretty much deducted that most of them wouldn't do the things for me that I would do for them. I'm not saying they're bad guys, far from it. Some of the best that I know. But in the end, I'm not like them. Is it the non-drinking, the chrisitan upbringing, the karate philosophy, the gullible belief of moral supremecy from buying into movie rhetoric? A combination of them all that leads the me holding impossible standards for people? Most likely. But I've set aside helping people blindly. As much as I want to help my friends, I can't. They don't trust me. And maybe it's because of their own egos, or maybe it's because of mine. Either way, I need to focus on myself right now. The stress of dealing with other people's problems would crush me. I have to take care of myself, my bills, my dreams, and my girl. That's all my priority right now. I love my guy friends, but there's bigger fish to fry. --- hopefully none of them take offense to this, it wasn't meant to be.
So while we're on the subject of fixing things, I'm doing what I can to better myself. I've been reading up a lot on Hwang Kee, the founder of Tang Soo Do, the style of martial arts that I practice. We don't really go that much into the history and philosophy of the style and in preparation of a possible Master Belt invitational letter that *may* come one day, I decided to explore. What I found rocked my world from all over. From belt colors, to philosophy on tournaments, personal challenges for someone to set for themselves. Everything has just changed my whole outlook on the style from now on. One of the biggest things I'm taking under my belt is the impossibility of perfection. And how not to judge others because you yourself have things to over come. Which explains not only the paragraph above, but my reluctance to participate in tournaments anymore. I'm focusing more on me and maybe through humble example I can inspire others to follow in their own personal journies, rather than set demands for them to meet in my own approval. It just seems to be a better aproach to helping people and relieving a load of stress from my own back. Problem with this is, America is the land of competition. Now I'm not knocking baseball, football or professional sports. But martial arts is supposed to be a way of life. Almost like a religion. And we all know what happens when religions enter into competition with one another.
What else what else.....oh, I gave up coca cola for 4 months. Yes, i made a new years resolution to give it up but have since relapsed. Now while people can say "i knew u were gonna" I give myself a lot of credit. How many people do you know keep a new years resolution for 4 days let alone 4 months?
Um, so what else, what else....
idk, I guess I'll update again when I think of something lol.