Ramblings part 1

[dailycommando]

I figure It's about time I make a "real" entry in this godforsaken journal of mine. Hmm updates.....my life is kind of spinning right now. It is probably the first time in my life where I do not know what is going to happen next, it's an odd feeling, one of excitement and another of fear rolled in fruition, I feel numb. The numbness one feels when his/her leg falls into a deep sleep, and as they try to move it, all they can feel is pain....and yet....they can't stop moving it, knowing that the pain will pass and they will be able to walk again. I do feel pain, but I know that once all this is over and the future reveals itself, the pain will pass and I will be free to walk again. Maybe this is how it is supposed to feel, I honestly haven't a clue, seeing that I'm still a child (or at least act like one) and, come what may, that maybe there is such a thing as fate. That there may still be hope for me. That there is such a thing as perfection...

(Please forgive the punctuation)