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this is amazing. pure amazing. i never thought...wow. if you could see the fire in my eyes than you'd understand how serious i am at this point. what kind of person brings a six year old child into a fucking argument? you're NINETEEN years old...thats just fucking below anything i could ever imagine. and i'm sorry that i talk shit about your girlfriend. i dont fucking like her. end of story. she's not my friend. i dont know her nor do i want to.
(12:28:46 AM): but if u wanna go low blows and u want me to bring ur bro into this
(12:28:49 AM): then keep talkin'
that right there..thats where you went wayyy over the line...thats past the point of ever fucken being forgiven again! you're trying to compare my relationship with my brother to your relationship with your girlfriend. theres no comparison. call me in 4 1/2 years..tell me when you're ten years old watching your little brother be born and two hours after..having 5 doctors rush in and snatch him. all anyone will tell you is that he's sick and that he may not make it. getting two blood transfusions and being in NICU in an incubator for what seems like months. and all you want to do as you sit there watching him scream and cry while they're sticking needles in him...is hold him and tell him that everythings gonna be ok and that you love him and you'll always be there by his side no matter what happens in your lives. and promising him that he is your best friend. tell me when you have to sit in a closet hearing your mom get thrown up against walls and being choked to the point where she's almost vomiting on the carpet right in front of your door. try waking up in the middle of the night hearing crying and screaming for someone...anyone that can hear...to call 9-1-1 and the second you get to the phone and have almost all three fucken numbers dialed..someone storms in the room grabs the phone...throws it against a wall and screams at you for even trying. try seeing bruises on your mom and her saying she ran into a cabinet or she fell at work. or have to be ten years old...getting a phone call at 1 in the morning telling you to get dressed and have everything ready cause we cant stay in our own house cause its not fucken safe cause our lives are at stake. try having to deal with someone scaring you cause they're on drugs and they don't know their own strength cause they have no control over what they do and how they do it. try moving away and changing your lifestyle just so someone can't find you and hurt you...but that one person is the only person you call daddy and has ever showed you love and affection. trying having your best friend/brother call you mommy cause you're the only person he ever see's enough to associate that with. try loving this one person more than life itself...and even being away from the person for a couple hours gives you this aching in your chest thats unbearable. now... after 4 1/2 years of going through all of that and sharing those experiences with one single person....seeing that person everyday..loving that person with your entire heart...and having that be the only one you've ever trusted fully and completely..loved unconditionally...and your entire world is THAT person...and then because your mom beats you up not only emotionally but physically too...now you can't see that person you love and care about so much. you cant see that one person who meant more to you than anything ever will in your entire life...that aching you felt when it was only a couple hours. multiplies to the highest number possible and you wonder why you ever wake up in the morning and how you even get through a day. and your life falls apart and you have no family and no friends...you have nothing. and you don't see the point in even living anymore... you tell me when you go through all of that. you tell me when you feel that way and been through that with your girlfriend...cause thats the only way in hell you can even come close to comparing what i had with my brother to what you have with your girlfriend. what you think you have isnt shit. that up there....thats true love in the purest form. that was a bond that you cant even come close to having. so go ahead you fucken piece of shit...bring my brother into this. i fucken dare you! cause at this game...you'll lose!
(12:44:28 AM): u still in my dust
(12:44:31 AM): u still a moocher
(12:44:34 AM): u still pathetic
(12:45:47 AM): and when i come back u'll still be here.......worthless
and if i'm worthless to you...i don't care..cause i don't care about the people who don't mean shit to me now.
(1:06:17 AM): i will nvr ever think about u bein' my girl ever
(1:06:20 AM): ever
(1:06:21 AM): ever
(1:06:22 AM): ever
and i dont want to be your 'girl' i have a boyfriend that you dont even compare to.
(12:40:41 AM): u were just an upgrade from angel
(12:40:50 AM): and now im up to da level i should be at
(12:41:03 AM): so thanks for being a steppin' stone ;-)
and i'm soo glad you said this....cause you know what....it just shows your true colors and what you're all about. i used to think the world of you. i used to think you were such an amazing person and now....you're nothing to me. you're just someone i used to know. and its sad that you've sunk this low and become this much of a piece of shit mother fucker. don't ever fucken talk to me ever again. you see me on the street...walk the other fucken way....cause you don't understand what you've sparked inside me...and this isn't gonna be pretty. this relationship...friendship...whatever you want to call it. its done.through.over. fuck you! i'm not gonna let you make me cry anymore. i'm done with your sorry ass. and as of 3:21 which is the time right now....thats it. fuck you!!! forget me...its the simple. remember...i'm just a stepping stone to where you were supposed to be. i'm worthless..i'm pathetic...and every other low kind of term you found to call me...so now in the back of my mind..you'll always be a reminder of what i never want to ever fucken become and who i never want to surround myself with. and just for the record...i don't want sympathy from anyone. cause i dont play the games you do...i'm just stating the facts. so get the fuck over that "she wants sympathy...aww poor brittany" bullshit.. thats not how it is.
(12:28:46 AM): but if u wanna go low blows and u want me to bring ur bro into this
(12:28:49 AM): then keep talkin'
that right there..thats where you went wayyy over the line...thats past the point of ever fucken being forgiven again! you're trying to compare my relationship with my brother to your relationship with your girlfriend. theres no comparison. call me in 4 1/2 years..tell me when you're ten years old watching your little brother be born and two hours after..having 5 doctors rush in and snatch him. all anyone will tell you is that he's sick and that he may not make it. getting two blood transfusions and being in NICU in an incubator for what seems like months. and all you want to do as you sit there watching him scream and cry while they're sticking needles in him...is hold him and tell him that everythings gonna be ok and that you love him and you'll always be there by his side no matter what happens in your lives. and promising him that he is your best friend. tell me when you have to sit in a closet hearing your mom get thrown up against walls and being choked to the point where she's almost vomiting on the carpet right in front of your door. try waking up in the middle of the night hearing crying and screaming for someone...anyone that can hear...to call 9-1-1 and the second you get to the phone and have almost all three fucken numbers dialed..someone storms in the room grabs the phone...throws it against a wall and screams at you for even trying. try seeing bruises on your mom and her saying she ran into a cabinet or she fell at work. or have to be ten years old...getting a phone call at 1 in the morning telling you to get dressed and have everything ready cause we cant stay in our own house cause its not fucken safe cause our lives are at stake. try having to deal with someone scaring you cause they're on drugs and they don't know their own strength cause they have no control over what they do and how they do it. try moving away and changing your lifestyle just so someone can't find you and hurt you...but that one person is the only person you call daddy and has ever showed you love and affection. trying having your best friend/brother call you mommy cause you're the only person he ever see's enough to associate that with. try loving this one person more than life itself...and even being away from the person for a couple hours gives you this aching in your chest thats unbearable. now... after 4 1/2 years of going through all of that and sharing those experiences with one single person....seeing that person everyday..loving that person with your entire heart...and having that be the only one you've ever trusted fully and completely..loved unconditionally...and your entire world is THAT person...and then because your mom beats you up not only emotionally but physically too...now you can't see that person you love and care about so much. you cant see that one person who meant more to you than anything ever will in your entire life...that aching you felt when it was only a couple hours. multiplies to the highest number possible and you wonder why you ever wake up in the morning and how you even get through a day. and your life falls apart and you have no family and no friends...you have nothing. and you don't see the point in even living anymore... you tell me when you go through all of that. you tell me when you feel that way and been through that with your girlfriend...cause thats the only way in hell you can even come close to comparing what i had with my brother to what you have with your girlfriend. what you think you have isnt shit. that up there....thats true love in the purest form. that was a bond that you cant even come close to having. so go ahead you fucken piece of shit...bring my brother into this. i fucken dare you! cause at this game...you'll lose!
(12:44:28 AM): u still in my dust
(12:44:31 AM): u still a moocher
(12:44:34 AM): u still pathetic
(12:45:47 AM): and when i come back u'll still be here.......worthless
and if i'm worthless to you...i don't care..cause i don't care about the people who don't mean shit to me now.
(1:06:17 AM): i will nvr ever think about u bein' my girl ever
(1:06:20 AM): ever
(1:06:21 AM): ever
(1:06:22 AM): ever
and i dont want to be your 'girl' i have a boyfriend that you dont even compare to.
(12:40:41 AM): u were just an upgrade from angel
(12:40:50 AM): and now im up to da level i should be at
(12:41:03 AM): so thanks for being a steppin' stone ;-)
and i'm soo glad you said this....cause you know what....it just shows your true colors and what you're all about. i used to think the world of you. i used to think you were such an amazing person and now....you're nothing to me. you're just someone i used to know. and its sad that you've sunk this low and become this much of a piece of shit mother fucker. don't ever fucken talk to me ever again. you see me on the street...walk the other fucken way....cause you don't understand what you've sparked inside me...and this isn't gonna be pretty. this relationship...friendship...whatever you want to call it. its done.through.over. fuck you! i'm not gonna let you make me cry anymore. i'm done with your sorry ass. and as of 3:21 which is the time right now....thats it. fuck you!!! forget me...its the simple. remember...i'm just a stepping stone to where you were supposed to be. i'm worthless..i'm pathetic...and every other low kind of term you found to call me...so now in the back of my mind..you'll always be a reminder of what i never want to ever fucken become and who i never want to surround myself with. and just for the record...i don't want sympathy from anyone. cause i dont play the games you do...i'm just stating the facts. so get the fuck over that "she wants sympathy...aww poor brittany" bullshit.. thats not how it is.