Missing
What a crazy weekend it has been. For the first time I met Roziell De'cartha. The other side of Matt. He came out twice. The second time was partly cause of me. Matt wanted to let him out. (God knows why) and let him play. Personally, Roz scares me. Also he caused Dailean to come out as she has never came out before. If Nick hadn't been there bad things would have happened. (She got a hold of matches and she likes fire more then I do.) Nick also saved Matt's life because Roz thought it would be a good idea to cut off Matt's air supply, which is dumb, and Nick had to resuscitate him. Other then that, the weekend was a lot of fun and I got drunk and it was great!
It's strange, the more time I spend with Matt the more I feel we are meant to be. We both have other personalities and like a lot of the same things. Plus he is so strong and that is what I need. It is sad though because he will be going back to the army in like two weeks. He just left a few hours ago for a trip. He's going to be gone all week. He has been gone only a few hours and already I miss him. His touch, his kiss still lingers upon my body. It is a comfort as well as a torment because it makes me want him back with me just that much more. Oh, he is such a wonderful man. I love him so much. I'm not sure what I'm going to do with myself when he goes back. I'm going to be lost for a bit, I know that. But for how long?
It's strange, the more time I spend with Matt the more I feel we are meant to be. We both have other personalities and like a lot of the same things. Plus he is so strong and that is what I need. It is sad though because he will be going back to the army in like two weeks. He just left a few hours ago for a trip. He's going to be gone all week. He has been gone only a few hours and already I miss him. His touch, his kiss still lingers upon my body. It is a comfort as well as a torment because it makes me want him back with me just that much more. Oh, he is such a wonderful man. I love him so much. I'm not sure what I'm going to do with myself when he goes back. I'm going to be lost for a bit, I know that. But for how long?