Heartbeak and Bus People
So my boyfriend left me about a month ago. November 9th. Totally heartbreaking. hahaha :) Shoulda saw it coming a bit better, things were weird with him. Ah well. I was still shocked and hurt. I basically died emotionally in the first week. The worst ever! But then I felt much better this past month. Yesterday night though I had a flip attack and got so depressed about it and just cried off and on for five hours while I was on facebook. I woke up really angry at him.
There were so many signs! God, I just trusted him too much. It sucks. And I was feeling so optimistic about everything! Meanwhile, he wasn't working on our relationship at all. And that's what a relationship is! He just expected it to be me mommying him though. He's a big baby. I never minded until now.
I want another job. One that pays well. Tips, hopefully. Or at least $10 an hour.
On the bus, this handsome older man struck up a conversation with me about the newspaper articles he was reading and his school life. Really strange. But at the end of it, he got up to get off the bus and said to me, "By the way, I hope you don't mind me saying that you're very cute." And then he got off. I was flattered regardless of how silly he was. I love bravery like that. haha :) maybe I'll start calling more men handsome when I notice that they are. Might as well!
I'm in Borders contemplating whether or not I want to buy a 3 dollar drink. Probably not. I usually do though. I'm so weak! haha. There's a really cool looking gal in here, too. I want to befriend her. Maybe I'll pass her a note on how cool I think she is, and then give her my number. She'd probably get the wrong idea, though! hahahhaa
Work in ten minutes. Gotta go.
PS,I want to write in my journal more. I'm always happier at times in which my journal is regularly being updated. This is a trend I notice in my life.
With Chase, I was happy, but I was lost. I let myself lose my identity. Never again, especially not for a guy like that. A big baby who lies to me and misleads me (and don't say, "oh he probably didnt mean to" because few people ever MEAN to--they just do because they're naturally crappy).
There were so many signs! God, I just trusted him too much. It sucks. And I was feeling so optimistic about everything! Meanwhile, he wasn't working on our relationship at all. And that's what a relationship is! He just expected it to be me mommying him though. He's a big baby. I never minded until now.
I want another job. One that pays well. Tips, hopefully. Or at least $10 an hour.
On the bus, this handsome older man struck up a conversation with me about the newspaper articles he was reading and his school life. Really strange. But at the end of it, he got up to get off the bus and said to me, "By the way, I hope you don't mind me saying that you're very cute." And then he got off. I was flattered regardless of how silly he was. I love bravery like that. haha :) maybe I'll start calling more men handsome when I notice that they are. Might as well!
I'm in Borders contemplating whether or not I want to buy a 3 dollar drink. Probably not. I usually do though. I'm so weak! haha. There's a really cool looking gal in here, too. I want to befriend her. Maybe I'll pass her a note on how cool I think she is, and then give her my number. She'd probably get the wrong idea, though! hahahhaa
Work in ten minutes. Gotta go.
PS,I want to write in my journal more. I'm always happier at times in which my journal is regularly being updated. This is a trend I notice in my life.
With Chase, I was happy, but I was lost. I let myself lose my identity. Never again, especially not for a guy like that. A big baby who lies to me and misleads me (and don't say, "oh he probably didnt mean to" because few people ever MEAN to--they just do because they're naturally crappy).